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I like how I always seem to be alone on Valentines Day.
I like how people read messages and DON'T respond.
I like how you call me your best friend, but don't treat me like one.
I like how no matter what I do, she comes in the lead.
I like how you give me shit for drinking, but it's ok for her to get wasted so she "feels better" when she has a wonderful guy doing everything in his power just to try and make her smile.
I like how I feel like I hate everything sometimes.
I like how my best friend never calls back when she says she will.
I like how I feel so alone that I have grown to see this as "normal".
I like how I would rather sit in my room alone with my thoughts reading a book or playing video games, then go try to hang out with friends.
I like how I am a completely different person than I used to be, but few seem to notice.
I like that I've had to learn to depend on me, and only me, to feel confident.
I like how I've learned to close myself off from everyone, and keep everything inside, so no one ever really knows what I'm really thinking to the full extent.
I like how I cry only when I am alone and sure no one will see me or have any clue that a single tear fell from my eyes today.
I like how I am still so weak, that I disgust myself.
I like how no matter how hard I try, I still think of you all the time and find myself day dreaming of how it would be if you ever let me in.
I like how I hate loving you and how I wish I could just stop caring, but I can't.
PSYCH.
I like how people read messages and DON'T respond.
I like how you call me your best friend, but don't treat me like one.
I like how no matter what I do, she comes in the lead.
I like how you give me shit for drinking, but it's ok for her to get wasted so she "feels better" when she has a wonderful guy doing everything in his power just to try and make her smile.
I like how I feel like I hate everything sometimes.
I like how my best friend never calls back when she says she will.
I like how I feel so alone that I have grown to see this as "normal".
I like how I would rather sit in my room alone with my thoughts reading a book or playing video games, then go try to hang out with friends.
I like how I am a completely different person than I used to be, but few seem to notice.
I like that I've had to learn to depend on me, and only me, to feel confident.
I like how I've learned to close myself off from everyone, and keep everything inside, so no one ever really knows what I'm really thinking to the full extent.
I like how I cry only when I am alone and sure no one will see me or have any clue that a single tear fell from my eyes today.
I like how I am still so weak, that I disgust myself.
I like how no matter how hard I try, I still think of you all the time and find myself day dreaming of how it would be if you ever let me in.
I like how I hate loving you and how I wish I could just stop caring, but I can't.
PSYCH.