My head is one big mess...
This is exactly why I can't visit Florida.
It makes me despise the life I have in North Carolina.
It ruins my views, my hopes, my security, my mood.
I feel depressed, alone, unmotivated, angry, and completely discontent.
I don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning. I don't feel like working.
I don't want to talk to anyone, and I really don't want to be around anyone.
Wouldn't matter if I did anyways...no one has time for me up here.
When I talked about moving to Jax, so many of my friends were all "Don't leave, you're my best friend" or "don't leave, you're my only girlfriend" bla bla bla.
I have one little phrase for all of you: Actions Speak Louder Than Words.
So, so much louder.
When I go home to visit, I have friends that go out of their way to hang out with me.
And it's not just because I'm visiting, it was that way when I lived there too.
I feel like my "best friends" down there are actually worthy of the title.
My "best friends" here(with the exception of 1 or 2), don't know the meaning.
I don't know what to do.
Wait it out.
Given a few weeks, I'll be settled back into my boring, lonely life.
I feel more content....it's the waiting that gets to me.
It makes me despise the life I have in North Carolina.
It ruins my views, my hopes, my security, my mood.
I feel depressed, alone, unmotivated, angry, and completely discontent.
I don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning. I don't feel like working.
I don't want to talk to anyone, and I really don't want to be around anyone.
Wouldn't matter if I did anyways...no one has time for me up here.
When I talked about moving to Jax, so many of my friends were all "Don't leave, you're my best friend" or "don't leave, you're my only girlfriend" bla bla bla.
I have one little phrase for all of you: Actions Speak Louder Than Words.
So, so much louder.
When I go home to visit, I have friends that go out of their way to hang out with me.
And it's not just because I'm visiting, it was that way when I lived there too.
I feel like my "best friends" down there are actually worthy of the title.
My "best friends" here(with the exception of 1 or 2), don't know the meaning.
I don't know what to do.
Wait it out.
Given a few weeks, I'll be settled back into my boring, lonely life.
I feel more content....it's the waiting that gets to me.