New Era
It's the last day of summer vacation. This day is rather monumental to me, because it's also the last day of my life as a SAHM*. Naturally, Ethan went to preschool last year, but only 3 days a week, and only for 3 hours each day. He was still a really cute 4 year old who said lots of words wrong - in that super cute way that is only cute under the age of 5. After that, it starts to make you wonder if the kid is disabled or something.
Last year, Ethan couldn't say the "th" sound. Instead, he said "Fank you", "Brudder", "Mudder", and, my personal favorite, "Efan". He has just recently started saying "th", and it makes me surprisingly sad. Yet simultaneously relieved, because now maybe he'll get by in school without having to be pulled out for Speech class.
It's funny; I worry about my second child's success in school WAY more than I ever worried about my first. Yes, I was more relaxed at the process of signing him up for kindergarten (It seemed so far away then!) but the more I think about it, the more I simply CANNOT picture Ethan taking orders from a teacher. Compliance? Not one of Ethan's strengths. Those of you who know him IRL: can you imagine him sitting still all day?
By "all day", I mean 8:30am to 3:00pm. We needed to enroll him in the full day program to enable me to work some kind of a job. Although, maybe I'll be spending most of my days visiting doctors, filling out paperwork, and trying to qualify for disability. Even typing that out makes me feel like one big, giant ball of failure. We'll see what the next few weeks bring. I tried getting test results today, but apparently they aren't in yet.
This entry is rambly and sucky, so I apologize, but I wanted to make a note of how I was feeling on this day. On account of it being the last day of summer vacation, I let the boys invite their friends over, and they're all making a lot of noise, which makes it hard for me to focus.
Anyway, the end of an era, it is. In so, SO many ways. Here's hoping the new era turns out to be a good one.
*Stay at home mom