Boku wa Sunshine (Chapter 3)
Chapter 3
“Ohayo gozaimasu~” Jun greets everyone as he come inside the dance practice room. Chorus of ohayo came from everyone especially from Arashi members. He sits beside Ohno and start to stretch.
“Satomi-chan is here, at Japan,” Jun said between stretches. Ohno look a bit startled and stares at him.
“Really?” Ohno asked. Jun nods his head and drink from the bottle water.
“It seems she has work here and will be staying for a while. She visit my mom last night and my mom kinda trick her by telling I am not gonna be home while I am on the way home,” Jun explained while looking at everyone playing around in the practice room. Ohno laugh a little and Jun can hear that Ohno whispered to himself something about what a good job Jun’s mom did. Jun chuckled a little. Suddenly a clapped can be heard.
“Alright, Arashi, please do get into position. We gonna practice Refrain,” the choreographer said. All of them start to get into the position and the moment the song started, they start to move one by one. For some reason, this song reminds Jun about Satomi and when they sing the chorus, it really hits Jun.
Ano hi no bokutachi wa sunao ni narenakute
(The two of us from those days couldn't be honest with each other)
Kimi no yokogao zutto Mitsumeta mama kisetsu wa sugita ne
(I always passed the seasons by gazing at you from the side, didn't I?)
Me wo tojireba setsunaku itoshii yo
(If I close my eyes, this is a painful love)
Itsuka no “aishiteru” kotoba ni dekinakute
(Unable to one day say the words "I love you")
Yawaraka na kioku wa(Kagayaku yo)
(The gentle memories [Are shining])
Koraeta namida kobore ochite kaze ni tsutsumareteita
(The tears I'd been fighting back spilled over and were hidden by the wind)
Jun’s voice cracked when he sings the last part. He can’t conceal his emotion anymore and tears dropped from his eyes. He immediately excuses himself and get out from the room. Not soon after that, Ohno follows Jun out to check on him while everyone still shocked at what happen. Aiba, Nino and Sho gather at one place while the others keep whispering to each other.
“What happen?” Aiba asked and scratch his head. Nino shrugged his shoulder but it can be shown at his face that he is worried about Jun while Sho lean on the wall and close his eyes.
“Remember when Ohno told us about Jun’s girlfriend who we didn’t get a chance to get to know and how they broke up?” Sho said all of the sudden. Aiba nods his head slowly and Nino looked at Sho straight on the eyes.
“I have the feeling that it might be the case,” Sho said again while picking up his bottle water and take a drink from it.
“That time when Jun-kun has his slump days?” Nino asked, just to make sure. Sho nods his head. Nino still remember that day, the day everyone gather at Jun’s apartment and everyone sits in the livingroom discussing on how to make Jun gets out from his room or at least make him eat something. The day when they get to see Jun’s sad face and in that moment when everyone was trying so hard to make him happy again. Nino wiped his face with a towel, he don’t want that day to happen again.
Nino know the risk of having a relationship when he is an idol but when he remember how happy Jun is while he is still in the relationship, he want to encourage Jun much more but when accident happen and Jun have to let it go, Nino wished that he could do something to fix it.
They never really know what exactly happen because no one want to tell them but they just decides that it is better for them not to know and concentrate on reviving Jun. Only Ohno knows everything but Ohno also choosing not to tell the full story. All he told them is that Jun is having a bad time because of some reasons and they should just cheer him up. Being a leader and all, they choose to just follow what he said. After a moment, Ohno come back with Jun by his side. In that moment, Nino, Aiba and Sho mentally agreed that they will not question about it.
Jun apologized to the staffs and the rest of Arashi. Sho just pats Jun’s shoulder and smiles at him while Aiba give Jun a big hug. Nino just smiles at Jun and they continue with their practice.
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Matsumoto Jun: 21 years old
Yamamoto Satomi: 18 years old
“Tadaima,” Jun whispered to the empty hallway. It is 4am and most of his family is sleeping. He climbs the stairs slowly and headed to his room. He notices that his room’s light is on and he immediately open up the door. Inside his room, Satomi is seated in front of his study desk and her head is on the table. It seems that she has been studying and fall asleep on the way. Jun shakes her a little and she wakes up. She rubbed her eyes a bit and looked at him.
“Satomi, what are you doing here?” asked Jun while placing his luggage at the corner of his bed. Satomi stretch a little before answering.
“I’ve tried studying at home but I can’t concentrate so I asked kaa-chan if I can use your room. I’m sorry, Onii-chan,” she said while still sitting at the chair and bowing to him. Jun laugh a little and sits on his bed.
“Not that I mind but it is getting late. Your parents are not at home?” Jun asked while opening his small luggage and takes out his dirty laundry. Satomi gets up and placed the laundry basket near Jun.
“Nope, they working and my dad is actually at America right now,” Satomi answered. Jun just hmmm and put away the laundry basket at the corner of the room then he takes out a futon from the cupboard and laid it beside the bed.
“I’ll take the futon,” Satomi said while raising her hand. Jun smack lightly her head and point at the bed.
“But you are tired from work and…” Satomi said but been cut by Jun when he lightly smacks her head.
“You, bed,” Jun said while pointing at Satomi then the bed, “I, futon,” he said it again while pointing at himself and then the futon. Satomi laugh a little and nods her head.
“Now, turn around, I am going to take off my clothes,” Jun said while taking out a towel and his pajama. Satomi immediately turn towards the desk and pretending to read something at her notes. She becomes even redder when she heard clothes’s ruffling signaling that Jun is taking off his clothes. When she heard the door been open, thinking that Jun already gone to the bathroom, she laid her head on the desk’s cold surface and without looking if he is gone or not she mumbling something.
“I am just the little sister, just the little sister. He won’t see me that way,” Satomi mumbling but what she doesn’t know that Jun actually still inside the room and heard everything. His heart suddenly beat faster and his cheek flamed with blush. He slowly takes his phone and headed to the bedroom. As he close the bedroom door, he lean his back to the door while placing his hand on his left chest and feels his own heartbeat. He dials someone on the phone and placed it on his ear.
“Oh-chan, remember what I said about that I love someone?” he said immediately after the other end connected. He could hear the sound of ocean in the background signaling that Ohno is currently fishing.
“Yes, what is it? What happen?” Ohno said a bit alarmed. It is quite rare for Jun suddenly called in a middle of the night.
“I think….she love me too,” Jun said it slowly. In his mind, he tried to think on the situation. He is afraid on what will happen if he confessed to her. What will happen when they are in a relationship and he can’t keep up? Will she mad at him if he is too busy? Will she drift away? Will she be safe? All those thoughts came up in his mind.
“Then, what were you waiting for?” Ohno asked. He is kinda amused with the situation that happening right now. For the always confident Jun to be in this stage, the girl must be very special.
“But…” Jun said but been cut by Ohno.
“Jun-kun, I don’t see the problem here. You love her, she loves you and it is not like our agency forbidden us to dates or being in a relationship. We just have to be discreet about it,” Ohno advised. He waits for a moment to hear any response from Jun but then the other line is on silent, so he continues.
“Jun, go for it. You need it,” he said it. In his heart, he wishes that Jun takes an action for his own happiness.
“Thank you, Leader,” Jun finally said something and after a few conversation, they hung up. Jun immediately clean himself and while soaking in the tub he is thinking on what he should do. After a moment, he dries himself and wears his pajama. He gets back to the bedroom and notices that Satomi already sleeping on the bed. He sits at the edge of the bed and stares at her. His hand slowly nears her face and tuck away strays of hair behind her ear. Satomi’s eyes immediately open but relaxed when she saw Jun.
“Onii-chan?” Satomi said while rubbing her eyes a bit. Without thinking, Jun lean forward and kissed her on her forehead. A bit shock, Satomi immediately sits down and come face to face with Jun. She stares at his face and a lot of thoughts running in her mind. Jun rests his palm on her cheek and lean forward again. This time, he kissed her on her lips lightly and backs away a little to check on her reaction. Her eyes grew big from the shock.
“I’ve been in love with you for such a long time,” Jun said. His thumb caresses Satomi’s cheek, waiting for her reaction. A single tear escaped from her eyes and Jun wipes it away with his thumb. He took it as a yes sign and kissed her again, this time a bit deeply. He could feel that Satomi responding to his kiss and he smiled a bit. He stopped kissing her and kissed her forehead. After he back away, Satomi hides her face with a pillow due to embarrass on what happen. Jun chuckled a bit and told her to sleep. He lay down at the futon with a dorky smile on his face.
“Onii-chan?” Jun called for him. She lies down on her stomach and take a peek at Jun. Jun raised his eyebrow and reach out to caresses her head.
“I love you too,” Satomi said and immediately turned to hide herself. Jun’s hand froze on the air and shocks written on his face. He could hear Satomi’s giggling and he chuckled a bit. He falls asleep with a smile on his face. He feels that he is the luckiest man on earth.
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Present Day:
“Ohayo~” Nino greets everyone in the dressing room. He sits beside Ohno on the couch and take a peek on what Ohno is reading. It is one of Ohno’s fishing magazines. He chuckled a bit and takes out his DS to play some games. Moment later, Jun arrives and greeted everyone. He immediately sits at the other Ohno’s side and takes out a book to read.
“Ohayo everyone,” their manager greets them all when he arrive. Chorus of good morning from Arashi can be heard. Their manager take a look at a few paperwork that he brought before continue to speak.
“Well, it has been finalize that Ohno-san will have another art exhibition,” their manager said. Everyone congratulate Ohno and clapped their hand. Ohno smiles widely at his achievement and in his mind, he already thinking about how he gonna presenting his art again.
“Oh, and today I will introduce you guys to someone who will help arranging Ohno’s exhibition. Ohno-san most probably already knew her because she said that you and her are acquaintance. She probably will be here any minute, she is currently having a meeting with Kitagawa-sama,” their manager said it again. By the mention of it, Ohno suddenly tense and take a look at Jun. Jun eyes meet his and they both know who it is.
“I didn’t know that you know Kitagawa-sama’s granddaughter,” their manager said while looking at Ohno and then he sits at one of the single couch. Everyone except for Jun look at Ohno surprised. Ohno just smile and shrugged his shoulder. A knock can be heard at the door and their manager immediately gets up and opened up the door.
“Ah, Yamamoto-sama, please do come in,” their manager welcome someone and gesturing her to come in.
“Eh, Satomi-chan?” Nino said as soon as Satomi come in. She smiles at him and bow her head.
“How you get to know her?” Jun said, trembling a bit.
“Uh, we share a table at the café I always go and we talk about her art,” Nino answered the question and he feel strange. Looking at Jun who can’t take off his eyes on Satomi and Ohno who looks at Jun, worry written all over his face and Satomi at the moment who look at Jun too as if they were having a painful experience. Aiba and Sho also notice the awkward situation and look at Nino. Nino shrugged his shoulder and continues looking at Satomi.
He didn’t like it, he didn’t like the look that Jun and Satomi had. It is as if they in love with each other and can’t confess to it or that they can’t be together as if someone prevents it. Nino grabbed Ohno’s shoulder and when Ohno look at him, Nino asked.
“What the heck is happening?”
“Ohayo gozaimasu~” Jun greets everyone as he come inside the dance practice room. Chorus of ohayo came from everyone especially from Arashi members. He sits beside Ohno and start to stretch.
“Satomi-chan is here, at Japan,” Jun said between stretches. Ohno look a bit startled and stares at him.
“Really?” Ohno asked. Jun nods his head and drink from the bottle water.
“It seems she has work here and will be staying for a while. She visit my mom last night and my mom kinda trick her by telling I am not gonna be home while I am on the way home,” Jun explained while looking at everyone playing around in the practice room. Ohno laugh a little and Jun can hear that Ohno whispered to himself something about what a good job Jun’s mom did. Jun chuckled a little. Suddenly a clapped can be heard.
“Alright, Arashi, please do get into position. We gonna practice Refrain,” the choreographer said. All of them start to get into the position and the moment the song started, they start to move one by one. For some reason, this song reminds Jun about Satomi and when they sing the chorus, it really hits Jun.
Ano hi no bokutachi wa sunao ni narenakute
(The two of us from those days couldn't be honest with each other)
Kimi no yokogao zutto Mitsumeta mama kisetsu wa sugita ne
(I always passed the seasons by gazing at you from the side, didn't I?)
Me wo tojireba setsunaku itoshii yo
(If I close my eyes, this is a painful love)
Itsuka no “aishiteru” kotoba ni dekinakute
(Unable to one day say the words "I love you")
Yawaraka na kioku wa(Kagayaku yo)
(The gentle memories [Are shining])
Koraeta namida kobore ochite kaze ni tsutsumareteita
(The tears I'd been fighting back spilled over and were hidden by the wind)
Jun’s voice cracked when he sings the last part. He can’t conceal his emotion anymore and tears dropped from his eyes. He immediately excuses himself and get out from the room. Not soon after that, Ohno follows Jun out to check on him while everyone still shocked at what happen. Aiba, Nino and Sho gather at one place while the others keep whispering to each other.
“What happen?” Aiba asked and scratch his head. Nino shrugged his shoulder but it can be shown at his face that he is worried about Jun while Sho lean on the wall and close his eyes.
“Remember when Ohno told us about Jun’s girlfriend who we didn’t get a chance to get to know and how they broke up?” Sho said all of the sudden. Aiba nods his head slowly and Nino looked at Sho straight on the eyes.
“I have the feeling that it might be the case,” Sho said again while picking up his bottle water and take a drink from it.
“That time when Jun-kun has his slump days?” Nino asked, just to make sure. Sho nods his head. Nino still remember that day, the day everyone gather at Jun’s apartment and everyone sits in the livingroom discussing on how to make Jun gets out from his room or at least make him eat something. The day when they get to see Jun’s sad face and in that moment when everyone was trying so hard to make him happy again. Nino wiped his face with a towel, he don’t want that day to happen again.
Nino know the risk of having a relationship when he is an idol but when he remember how happy Jun is while he is still in the relationship, he want to encourage Jun much more but when accident happen and Jun have to let it go, Nino wished that he could do something to fix it.
They never really know what exactly happen because no one want to tell them but they just decides that it is better for them not to know and concentrate on reviving Jun. Only Ohno knows everything but Ohno also choosing not to tell the full story. All he told them is that Jun is having a bad time because of some reasons and they should just cheer him up. Being a leader and all, they choose to just follow what he said. After a moment, Ohno come back with Jun by his side. In that moment, Nino, Aiba and Sho mentally agreed that they will not question about it.
Jun apologized to the staffs and the rest of Arashi. Sho just pats Jun’s shoulder and smiles at him while Aiba give Jun a big hug. Nino just smiles at Jun and they continue with their practice.
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Matsumoto Jun: 21 years old
Yamamoto Satomi: 18 years old
“Tadaima,” Jun whispered to the empty hallway. It is 4am and most of his family is sleeping. He climbs the stairs slowly and headed to his room. He notices that his room’s light is on and he immediately open up the door. Inside his room, Satomi is seated in front of his study desk and her head is on the table. It seems that she has been studying and fall asleep on the way. Jun shakes her a little and she wakes up. She rubbed her eyes a bit and looked at him.
“Satomi, what are you doing here?” asked Jun while placing his luggage at the corner of his bed. Satomi stretch a little before answering.
“I’ve tried studying at home but I can’t concentrate so I asked kaa-chan if I can use your room. I’m sorry, Onii-chan,” she said while still sitting at the chair and bowing to him. Jun laugh a little and sits on his bed.
“Not that I mind but it is getting late. Your parents are not at home?” Jun asked while opening his small luggage and takes out his dirty laundry. Satomi gets up and placed the laundry basket near Jun.
“Nope, they working and my dad is actually at America right now,” Satomi answered. Jun just hmmm and put away the laundry basket at the corner of the room then he takes out a futon from the cupboard and laid it beside the bed.
“I’ll take the futon,” Satomi said while raising her hand. Jun smack lightly her head and point at the bed.
“But you are tired from work and…” Satomi said but been cut by Jun when he lightly smacks her head.
“You, bed,” Jun said while pointing at Satomi then the bed, “I, futon,” he said it again while pointing at himself and then the futon. Satomi laugh a little and nods her head.
“Now, turn around, I am going to take off my clothes,” Jun said while taking out a towel and his pajama. Satomi immediately turn towards the desk and pretending to read something at her notes. She becomes even redder when she heard clothes’s ruffling signaling that Jun is taking off his clothes. When she heard the door been open, thinking that Jun already gone to the bathroom, she laid her head on the desk’s cold surface and without looking if he is gone or not she mumbling something.
“I am just the little sister, just the little sister. He won’t see me that way,” Satomi mumbling but what she doesn’t know that Jun actually still inside the room and heard everything. His heart suddenly beat faster and his cheek flamed with blush. He slowly takes his phone and headed to the bedroom. As he close the bedroom door, he lean his back to the door while placing his hand on his left chest and feels his own heartbeat. He dials someone on the phone and placed it on his ear.
“Oh-chan, remember what I said about that I love someone?” he said immediately after the other end connected. He could hear the sound of ocean in the background signaling that Ohno is currently fishing.
“Yes, what is it? What happen?” Ohno said a bit alarmed. It is quite rare for Jun suddenly called in a middle of the night.
“I think….she love me too,” Jun said it slowly. In his mind, he tried to think on the situation. He is afraid on what will happen if he confessed to her. What will happen when they are in a relationship and he can’t keep up? Will she mad at him if he is too busy? Will she drift away? Will she be safe? All those thoughts came up in his mind.
“Then, what were you waiting for?” Ohno asked. He is kinda amused with the situation that happening right now. For the always confident Jun to be in this stage, the girl must be very special.
“But…” Jun said but been cut by Ohno.
“Jun-kun, I don’t see the problem here. You love her, she loves you and it is not like our agency forbidden us to dates or being in a relationship. We just have to be discreet about it,” Ohno advised. He waits for a moment to hear any response from Jun but then the other line is on silent, so he continues.
“Jun, go for it. You need it,” he said it. In his heart, he wishes that Jun takes an action for his own happiness.
“Thank you, Leader,” Jun finally said something and after a few conversation, they hung up. Jun immediately clean himself and while soaking in the tub he is thinking on what he should do. After a moment, he dries himself and wears his pajama. He gets back to the bedroom and notices that Satomi already sleeping on the bed. He sits at the edge of the bed and stares at her. His hand slowly nears her face and tuck away strays of hair behind her ear. Satomi’s eyes immediately open but relaxed when she saw Jun.
“Onii-chan?” Satomi said while rubbing her eyes a bit. Without thinking, Jun lean forward and kissed her on her forehead. A bit shock, Satomi immediately sits down and come face to face with Jun. She stares at his face and a lot of thoughts running in her mind. Jun rests his palm on her cheek and lean forward again. This time, he kissed her on her lips lightly and backs away a little to check on her reaction. Her eyes grew big from the shock.
“I’ve been in love with you for such a long time,” Jun said. His thumb caresses Satomi’s cheek, waiting for her reaction. A single tear escaped from her eyes and Jun wipes it away with his thumb. He took it as a yes sign and kissed her again, this time a bit deeply. He could feel that Satomi responding to his kiss and he smiled a bit. He stopped kissing her and kissed her forehead. After he back away, Satomi hides her face with a pillow due to embarrass on what happen. Jun chuckled a bit and told her to sleep. He lay down at the futon with a dorky smile on his face.
“Onii-chan?” Jun called for him. She lies down on her stomach and take a peek at Jun. Jun raised his eyebrow and reach out to caresses her head.
“I love you too,” Satomi said and immediately turned to hide herself. Jun’s hand froze on the air and shocks written on his face. He could hear Satomi’s giggling and he chuckled a bit. He falls asleep with a smile on his face. He feels that he is the luckiest man on earth.
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Present Day:
“Ohayo~” Nino greets everyone in the dressing room. He sits beside Ohno on the couch and take a peek on what Ohno is reading. It is one of Ohno’s fishing magazines. He chuckled a bit and takes out his DS to play some games. Moment later, Jun arrives and greeted everyone. He immediately sits at the other Ohno’s side and takes out a book to read.
“Ohayo everyone,” their manager greets them all when he arrive. Chorus of good morning from Arashi can be heard. Their manager take a look at a few paperwork that he brought before continue to speak.
“Well, it has been finalize that Ohno-san will have another art exhibition,” their manager said. Everyone congratulate Ohno and clapped their hand. Ohno smiles widely at his achievement and in his mind, he already thinking about how he gonna presenting his art again.
“Oh, and today I will introduce you guys to someone who will help arranging Ohno’s exhibition. Ohno-san most probably already knew her because she said that you and her are acquaintance. She probably will be here any minute, she is currently having a meeting with Kitagawa-sama,” their manager said it again. By the mention of it, Ohno suddenly tense and take a look at Jun. Jun eyes meet his and they both know who it is.
“I didn’t know that you know Kitagawa-sama’s granddaughter,” their manager said while looking at Ohno and then he sits at one of the single couch. Everyone except for Jun look at Ohno surprised. Ohno just smile and shrugged his shoulder. A knock can be heard at the door and their manager immediately gets up and opened up the door.
“Ah, Yamamoto-sama, please do come in,” their manager welcome someone and gesturing her to come in.
“Eh, Satomi-chan?” Nino said as soon as Satomi come in. She smiles at him and bow her head.
“How you get to know her?” Jun said, trembling a bit.
“Uh, we share a table at the café I always go and we talk about her art,” Nino answered the question and he feel strange. Looking at Jun who can’t take off his eyes on Satomi and Ohno who looks at Jun, worry written all over his face and Satomi at the moment who look at Jun too as if they were having a painful experience. Aiba and Sho also notice the awkward situation and look at Nino. Nino shrugged his shoulder and continues looking at Satomi.
He didn’t like it, he didn’t like the look that Jun and Satomi had. It is as if they in love with each other and can’t confess to it or that they can’t be together as if someone prevents it. Nino grabbed Ohno’s shoulder and when Ohno look at him, Nino asked.
“What the heck is happening?”