Aug 26th 201.6
Weight 201.6
Day 2
Day 2 of my new program and I've done well. I've decided to stop obsessing about every calorie that enters my mouth and instead make peace with the fact that I will never be perfect. Food is meant to be enjoyed, but not abused and that is the mindset I'm trying to keep. Essentially its okay to enjoy food; its ok to eat what you like ..but I'm trying to stop the "panic" that overtakes me when I eat good food. I feel that it is forbidden which leads me to binge because i think that I cant do this; I have to eat boring health food otherwise I will gain.
So wrong, and such disordered thinking.
3500 calories extra =one pound so i just need to think of it in those terms. Eating a little more than what I've alloted myself will not cause me to gain weight; in fact, I might lose some. Binging on complete bags of chips and cookies, however, is what has brought me to this weight in the first place.
I want to get to a place where I make peace with food. I dont want food to have power over my life anymore. i want my power back. Years have gone by wasted worrying about food and fat grams and carbs. I cant do that to myself anymore. Life is short; life is to be enjoyed. I want my life back.
I want freedom, and Im gonna have it.
I think its equally important to give myself praise for the good things i have done.
Today I bought a 99 cent bag of cheetos and only had a little bit out of it..way less than half. I went to chipotle and ate my burrito bowl with only a little rice, sour cream and cheese and regular chicken. I didnt feel the need to get the chips and guacamole. I waited till I was hungry to eat dinner and I didnt overeat. I ate 2 small squares of chocolate, not the whole bag. Little successes but they all add up.
Tomorrow I want to concentrate on drinking more water, taking my vitamins and eating some fruits/veggies. The only veggies I had today were the tomatoes in my salsa and some peas for dinner. Thats not enough. :)
I also want to concentrate on working on goals to improve my life. Tomorrow I'm going to take a career assessment test for school.
good night.
Day 2
Day 2 of my new program and I've done well. I've decided to stop obsessing about every calorie that enters my mouth and instead make peace with the fact that I will never be perfect. Food is meant to be enjoyed, but not abused and that is the mindset I'm trying to keep. Essentially its okay to enjoy food; its ok to eat what you like ..but I'm trying to stop the "panic" that overtakes me when I eat good food. I feel that it is forbidden which leads me to binge because i think that I cant do this; I have to eat boring health food otherwise I will gain.
So wrong, and such disordered thinking.
3500 calories extra =one pound so i just need to think of it in those terms. Eating a little more than what I've alloted myself will not cause me to gain weight; in fact, I might lose some. Binging on complete bags of chips and cookies, however, is what has brought me to this weight in the first place.
I want to get to a place where I make peace with food. I dont want food to have power over my life anymore. i want my power back. Years have gone by wasted worrying about food and fat grams and carbs. I cant do that to myself anymore. Life is short; life is to be enjoyed. I want my life back.
I want freedom, and Im gonna have it.
I think its equally important to give myself praise for the good things i have done.
Today I bought a 99 cent bag of cheetos and only had a little bit out of it..way less than half. I went to chipotle and ate my burrito bowl with only a little rice, sour cream and cheese and regular chicken. I didnt feel the need to get the chips and guacamole. I waited till I was hungry to eat dinner and I didnt overeat. I ate 2 small squares of chocolate, not the whole bag. Little successes but they all add up.
Tomorrow I want to concentrate on drinking more water, taking my vitamins and eating some fruits/veggies. The only veggies I had today were the tomatoes in my salsa and some peas for dinner. Thats not enough. :)
I also want to concentrate on working on goals to improve my life. Tomorrow I'm going to take a career assessment test for school.
good night.