I must end this year...
Under 195. this is f*cking ridiculous...I cannot stop my overeating.
I am going back to writing every morsel I put in my mouth. I need to be accountable. I have to stop this nonsense. I feel like Oprah, but without the cash...
Speaking of, I got Oprah's most recent magazine and she's up to 200 pounds again. Even with dieticians, trainers, and the money to have her fat sucked off her ass, she can't control herself with food. That speaks volumes to me. This is more an emotional issue than a food issue, and even with all her money, Oprah still seeks comfort in food.
It's my drug of choice. Last night (Christmas Eve) I asked for half a piece of cake and someone handed me a WHOLE piece, and I said "You cant give a food addict a whole piece; they'll eat it..we cant resist and plus we hate to waste food" Well, everyone giggled, but really, its true in my case. I cant resist something yummy, and I do have that guilt of wasting food. And, yes I know..I could wrap up half and take it home, but u know I'm NOT going to do that. I HAVE to eat it now. GRRR
I'm having Christmas dinner at my aunts. Italian food. I AM going to control myself today. I plan on having a small portion of pasta with either 2 small meatballs or 1 sausage, a salad if they are having that, and one piece of dessert later. I am going to try and resist all the appetizer type food they have leftover from last night.
I Am going to get to my goal weight, and overcome my eating issues. I am DONE with all this.
merry Christmas everyone.
I am going back to writing every morsel I put in my mouth. I need to be accountable. I have to stop this nonsense. I feel like Oprah, but without the cash...
Speaking of, I got Oprah's most recent magazine and she's up to 200 pounds again. Even with dieticians, trainers, and the money to have her fat sucked off her ass, she can't control herself with food. That speaks volumes to me. This is more an emotional issue than a food issue, and even with all her money, Oprah still seeks comfort in food.
It's my drug of choice. Last night (Christmas Eve) I asked for half a piece of cake and someone handed me a WHOLE piece, and I said "You cant give a food addict a whole piece; they'll eat it..we cant resist and plus we hate to waste food" Well, everyone giggled, but really, its true in my case. I cant resist something yummy, and I do have that guilt of wasting food. And, yes I know..I could wrap up half and take it home, but u know I'm NOT going to do that. I HAVE to eat it now. GRRR
I'm having Christmas dinner at my aunts. Italian food. I AM going to control myself today. I plan on having a small portion of pasta with either 2 small meatballs or 1 sausage, a salad if they are having that, and one piece of dessert later. I am going to try and resist all the appetizer type food they have leftover from last night.
I Am going to get to my goal weight, and overcome my eating issues. I am DONE with all this.
merry Christmas everyone.