i miss my boy

[sayrah8604]

im back at college, ive been here for all of like 2 hrs at the most, and i already miss my matthew more then words can explain. im not sure why i miss him so much right now, i kno i will see him friday. well, i kno why i miss him, its because i love him so much. but i guess i just figured that as the weeks went on and i had to say good bye that it would get a little easier. but it hasnt. its only gotten worse. the first time, when he dropped me off with my parents, was the easiest. its like i didnt kno what was going on, or that i wouldnt see him for a week. but now io do. and it sucks. before i came here, i hadnt gone a day without seeing him for atleast half an hour. why is it getting so hard? it just doesnt seem fair. maybe i will transfer schools? maybe to UNH? i dunno, right now it just doesnt seem like this is worth not bing with the one i love. ahh. this sucks.

i miss my matthew soo much and i love him more then life itself.
i hope he knows that. cuz it hurts me a really lot to have to be so far away from him for so long.

luv ya-sayrah