.: 108 | Leave it to me.
[filtered to Schuldig and Yuuko]
I'm not really sure how to ask this, or what I'm really asking for. So, I'm just going to come out with it. I promised someone that I'd ask, anyway ...
Would either of you be able to tell if the reason someone has been having some memory lapses - more frequently lately, apparently - is due to her trying to erase her memories with magic once before? And, maybe, is there a way you could help her with the whole thing if you can tell ...?
[/filtered to Schuldig and Yuuko]
It still hurts ...
I've been doing a lot of thinking ... well, that's been true for the last couple of weeks.
I ... lost sight of a lot of things for the past while. Everything that I wanted to do, who I wanted to become ... I haven't done anything for that at all. Maybe that's why ...?
Well, regardless.
I'm not going to run anymore. From what I'm supposed to be doing or what I want to make of myself. I won't run ... but, more than that, I'll become someone that I can be proud of being, someone who won't fail in what I put my hand to. I'll ... somehow, I'll manage to protect everyone ... that's ...
... I thought, for a while, that it'd be better not to exist, or not to feel, or anything like that. Back on Auldrant, a few times here ... I thought that it would be best, that it would help everyone if I were to just ... but, I've really started to realize now how worthless that is. You can't do anything after you're gone, but, as long as you live, as long as you still exist, you can keep trying and accomplish what you woud like to. You can become whatever you want to be, you can find whatever you've lost. It's important just to keep existing, for the sake of those you no longer have at your side, to be with them again one day, when the time is right. I ... that's what I think.
I'm not going to run ... I'm going to become the person who I vowed to be, and ... and when I see him again, when all of this is over, I'll be someone who I can be proud of. Someone who he'll want to be with. I ... want to return to him when I'm at my best. And, while I'm doing this, I want to help everyone who's here ... I want to become strong enough for your sakes, to be someone who you can rely on when you need to. That's ... that's the only thing that I know for sure that I need right now.
That's ... I beileve that is how I'm going to become ... worthy of the trust that Lorelei has placed in me.
I'm sorry ... please ... I know I don't have the right, but please ... please forgive me for what might happen in the meantime because of this.
I'm not really sure how to ask this, or what I'm really asking for. So, I'm just going to come out with it. I promised someone that I'd ask, anyway ...
Would either of you be able to tell if the reason someone has been having some memory lapses - more frequently lately, apparently - is due to her trying to erase her memories with magic once before? And, maybe, is there a way you could help her with the whole thing if you can tell ...?
[/filtered to Schuldig and Yuuko]
It still hurts ...
I've been doing a lot of thinking ... well, that's been true for the last couple of weeks.
I ... lost sight of a lot of things for the past while. Everything that I wanted to do, who I wanted to become ... I haven't done anything for that at all. Maybe that's why ...?
Well, regardless.
I'm not going to run anymore. From what I'm supposed to be doing or what I want to make of myself. I won't run ... but, more than that, I'll become someone that I can be proud of being, someone who won't fail in what I put my hand to. I'll ... somehow, I'll manage to protect everyone ... that's ...
... I thought, for a while, that it'd be better not to exist, or not to feel, or anything like that. Back on Auldrant, a few times here ... I thought that it would be best, that it would help everyone if I were to just ... but, I've really started to realize now how worthless that is. You can't do anything after you're gone, but, as long as you live, as long as you still exist, you can keep trying and accomplish what you woud like to. You can become whatever you want to be, you can find whatever you've lost. It's important just to keep existing, for the sake of those you no longer have at your side, to be with them again one day, when the time is right. I ... that's what I think.
I'm not going to run ... I'm going to become the person who I vowed to be, and ... and when I see him again, when all of this is over, I'll be someone who I can be proud of. Someone who he'll want to be with. I ... want to return to him when I'm at my best. And, while I'm doing this, I want to help everyone who's here ... I want to become strong enough for your sakes, to be someone who you can rely on when you need to. That's ... that's the only thing that I know for sure that I need right now.
That's ... I beileve that is how I'm going to become ... worthy of the trust that Lorelei has placed in me.
I'm sorry ... please ... I know I don't have the right, but please ... please forgive me for what might happen in the meantime because of this.