.: 076 | Didn't make it ...
... so many people talking about singing is reminding me of Daath ... I mean, it's not to say that the Melodists' hymns were particularly bright and cheerful, because they weren't, but they were pretty nice to listen to ...
Usually, I'm so happy to be out of there. Away from Asch's anger, away from Legretta's punishments, away from sensei's plans ... I'm not hidden away anymore, and I don't need to stay out of sight because there's no one here who really has too much reason to question how I look. I've been so happy about that for the most part. But ... but I miss it. Even with all of the problems that I had there, even with the fact that I really could never fit in, it was my home. I loved Auldrant, I really did. I guess it probably sounds strange for me to say that, though, since I've never seen anything of it outside of the hallways within the cathedral.
I don't even know why I'm thinking of it ...
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I talked with ... 'myself.' It's kind of scary, knowing that there's a me out there who's so ...
But that's besides the point, anyway. He's ... I'm worried about him. Worried? Well ... I'm not sure if I even have the right to be, honestly. But I don't want him hurt; I don't want sensei to use him! But even saying that ...
I made him promise me that he wouldn't let anyone use him. That he would question things, no matter how much he trusts the person. But, how can I ever know that will be enough? Jade said that Akzeriuth collapses because of the me in that Auldrant ... because of this Luke who is here now. How can I know that he'd listen to me if he returns home? How can I even live with knowing that, if he does, I'm responsible for completely altering the future of that Auldrant?
What gives me the right ...?
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Usually, I'm so happy to be out of there. Away from Asch's anger, away from Legretta's punishments, away from sensei's plans ... I'm not hidden away anymore, and I don't need to stay out of sight because there's no one here who really has too much reason to question how I look. I've been so happy about that for the most part. But ... but I miss it. Even with all of the problems that I had there, even with the fact that I really could never fit in, it was my home. I loved Auldrant, I really did. I guess it probably sounds strange for me to say that, though, since I've never seen anything of it outside of the hallways within the cathedral.
I don't even know why I'm thinking of it ...
[Private]
I talked with ... 'myself.' It's kind of scary, knowing that there's a me out there who's so ...
But that's besides the point, anyway. He's ... I'm worried about him. Worried? Well ... I'm not sure if I even have the right to be, honestly. But I don't want him hurt; I don't want sensei to use him! But even saying that ...
I made him promise me that he wouldn't let anyone use him. That he would question things, no matter how much he trusts the person. But, how can I ever know that will be enough? Jade said that Akzeriuth collapses because of the me in that Auldrant ... because of this Luke who is here now. How can I know that he'd listen to me if he returns home? How can I even live with knowing that, if he does, I'm responsible for completely altering the future of that Auldrant?
What gives me the right ...?
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