rain rain go away..
frequent trips to Laur's apartment have kept me sane in the past couple of weeks. As has seeing Nick as much as I can. Yet there's still something missing out of this thing I'm calling my life. College starts soon but I'm not feeling very "collegey" right about now, nor do I think I will.
Pete goes back to Tech soon - we've hung out a couple times, all ended with us laughing at an old joke we used to have. We've figured out that over the years, it didn't matter if we were at a party with 200 people, if you looked around you'd see Beck Pete & I sitting in the corner talking & laughing with eachother. Just kinda works out that way.
I'm beginning to notice how many amazing people I have around me. I mean, I've always known but I guess you notice it more when everyday you feel yourself slipping a little more but you have 5 people off the top of your head that would be at your house in minutes if needed. It's an amazing feeling.
As for everything else, I've learned - but I don't think I've learned enough not to make the same mistake twice - which is weird.
Doing ridiculous things helps life get a little lighter. Last night Nick & I went to Deptford to a party via an invitation from Bruno. By the time midnight rolled around 5 of us were in the kitchen, Bruno playing guitar, Me singing, Nick playing a pot with a spoon & 2 kids singing louder than anything I've ever heard.
it helped
I haven't exactly been myself for a while now - but then again who am I? .. everyone's noted a change - some say for the better, some say for the worse. I'll know someday.
As for now I know that I love the people around me. Nicholas, Kenny, Bruno, Pete, Laur - they all keep me smiling - yet there's something I need.
Does it really not matter? Why am I still to this day so sure of certain things? Shouldn't that have been destroyed a while ago?
Enough life lessons for today - time to go crave velveeta shells & cheese.
could you see the beauty inside of me? what happened to the beauty i had inside of me?
Pete goes back to Tech soon - we've hung out a couple times, all ended with us laughing at an old joke we used to have. We've figured out that over the years, it didn't matter if we were at a party with 200 people, if you looked around you'd see Beck Pete & I sitting in the corner talking & laughing with eachother. Just kinda works out that way.
I'm beginning to notice how many amazing people I have around me. I mean, I've always known but I guess you notice it more when everyday you feel yourself slipping a little more but you have 5 people off the top of your head that would be at your house in minutes if needed. It's an amazing feeling.
As for everything else, I've learned - but I don't think I've learned enough not to make the same mistake twice - which is weird.
Doing ridiculous things helps life get a little lighter. Last night Nick & I went to Deptford to a party via an invitation from Bruno. By the time midnight rolled around 5 of us were in the kitchen, Bruno playing guitar, Me singing, Nick playing a pot with a spoon & 2 kids singing louder than anything I've ever heard.
it helped
I haven't exactly been myself for a while now - but then again who am I? .. everyone's noted a change - some say for the better, some say for the worse. I'll know someday.
As for now I know that I love the people around me. Nicholas, Kenny, Bruno, Pete, Laur - they all keep me smiling - yet there's something I need.
Does it really not matter? Why am I still to this day so sure of certain things? Shouldn't that have been destroyed a while ago?
Enough life lessons for today - time to go crave velveeta shells & cheese.
could you see the beauty inside of me? what happened to the beauty i had inside of me?