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So I fucked up again, no suprise there, but I tried apologizing in my post no luck, it was left ignored, and I'm still upset as anything, I always lose everyone cause I'm such a fuck up, I had to get on a plane going home, cause I have a lot of press meetings to do for the new CD, and I told Jon about it, but I'm sure he didn't want to talk, he stayed silent and I walked off and started packing up, and left for the airport, where I'm sitting at right now, my flight isn't for another hour, and I'm wondering if I'm going to end up going home alone, right now it seems it.
I wish I didn't fuck up, I wish I didn't have such a bad temper, maybe if I did it'd be alright now, and Jon wouldn't of signed off, and instead we would've worked things out and I'd be in his arms right now, instead of trying my hardest not to cry. I even told Hannah when she told me to lay down that I couldn't that it didn't feel right to lay down without his arms around me, his touch isn't there to comfort me, and I'm a fucking mess over it all.
Again Jon, I'm sorry for being a fuck up, and not being the boyfriend you deserve, I wish I could be better for you, but I can't. I love you..
-Mark
I wish I didn't fuck up, I wish I didn't have such a bad temper, maybe if I did it'd be alright now, and Jon wouldn't of signed off, and instead we would've worked things out and I'd be in his arms right now, instead of trying my hardest not to cry. I even told Hannah when she told me to lay down that I couldn't that it didn't feel right to lay down without his arms around me, his touch isn't there to comfort me, and I'm a fucking mess over it all.
Again Jon, I'm sorry for being a fuck up, and not being the boyfriend you deserve, I wish I could be better for you, but I can't. I love you..
-Mark