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(BTW, I thought about how I only post with depressing complaints, but it's my fucking journal and no one has to read this shit. so whatever.)
I didn't realize it at first, but my parents have been excluding me. Like they're living their own private lives by themselves. They go out to eat and don't even ask me if I want to go anymore, they celebrate things without me, go shopping without me, etc. They used to at least ask.
That's why I hope they're not fucking surprised when I move out and never fucking visit or call or anything. I'm going to be the daughter they lost because of things they can't even notice. My brother isn't even lost to them after all the crazy shit with him, which I don't get. Maybe he's just a better person than me. I can't figure it out.
So for now, Easter really isn't happening. Last year there was a basket and hidden eggs (which I could definitely do without). This year, they had bags of candy for themselves for weeks. Yeah.
Chrissy wants to hang out, though. Suggested watching Harry Potter and eating candy with the group - I know she's missing everyone, but all the drama makes me want to pull back. Anyway, every time I watch HP I want to eat weird/awesome candy because of the food they have so that will be rather excellent. I can buy my own fucking candy. Whatever. IT'LL BE ON FUCKING SALE.