spiraling!
Yikes! Ever feel as if you're in lets say a dryer being whirled around with no way of stopping? That feeling of total loss of control and fright? It's a rather scary feeling indeed. To see one you love spiral, with you not knowing when it will stop or what the next move they'll take will cause. It's frightening and at the same time quite humbling. To know that your world isn't perfect at all. To know that in fact shit, bad shit can and will happen! But you learn to overcome and live with and or help the one spiraling.