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I've got a serious problem. You know the way you feel when you worry to much. The stomach ache, the disposition you have, the sort of depression and paranoia you get. I get that everyday now. Mostly right before i go to bed until afternoon, or until I go somewhere with someone. I don't know what causes it. I don't know what I'm worrying about. Sometimes it starts as something little, like what I'm going to do the next day, then it grows and it's not even that problem anymore it's like every problem I have but then no problem at the same time. It makes it hard to sleep and eat. I normally wake up repeatedly and sit in front of the toilet and sleep and wait until I throw and which sometimes happens, usually doesn't. I think I have monophobia. I think I'm afraid to be alone. I don't know what it is but it's annoying and I'm still depressed and the therapist just made me angry and there's nothing I can do about anything that's wrong with me and I dont want to go to any doctors and I don't want to take this medication. I would only want to take medication in the case that it would FIX WHATEVER THE FUCK MAKES ME SICK.
My Friday was really great.
I got up and felt like I just explained and went to city place with Billie and felt better. We hung out around city place, downtown, and the abandonned ware house until about 3. I came home and Becca picked me up and we met Ivy down at city place and walked over to the ampitheatre and met Bryan and we all hung out until late and went to TownPlace and wrote all over the walls and stairs because I love vandelism so much. Bryan is my new friend and I want to hang out with him alot.
My Saturday made me think the world hated me and I don't want to type it out on LiveJournal.
Today was boring but I finished my Health project and I felt accomplished.
Lately all my drawings have come out like something from a Shel Silverstein book.