Pwnd!
Ho-ly Shit that party was fun last night! It was one of jesse's friends from college (Emily) and she lives in North Ridgeville. It was definatly the most fun i have had since i have been home. Here is the equation:
Jesse + Jake + 9 girls + more alcohol then we can drink + Napolean Dynamite + beer pong + pool = a way good time
Like, i dont even know what to say, it was just great. What sucked though was that i swear i was hungover before i even went to sleep. It was so weird though, like everyone was randomly hooking up. Also these guys came over and everyone went outside to smoke, and they all seemed really old... Haha, ill never forget the tone of Jesse's voice when he yells upstairs in the morning "Where's...Jake?" Pause. Emily: "Uh...he's in my room." Followed by him walking in the room..."No way, no fucking way, you guys are in alot of trouble, your grounded" Funniest thing ever lol. Also, me, Emily, Jesse, and Mary went to Denny's in the morning, and now i feel like im giong to puke becuase i ate a alot amount ugh. This girls name was Mary Cathren Gallager...which is really fuckingn weird becuase thats the exact same name from the nun girl on saturday night live. AND, she was a catholic school girl too. Hopefully today we are going to drive out to Macedonia to play In The Groove.
Also; (btw, any "quotes" in my response are just phrases taken from Trish's L J)
TRISH'S L J ENTRY:
i love the way my dad explains what a yegger bomb does...
So, life is better but only because right now my dad bought me jenz and mike a boat load of alcohol, wetre all drinking it, and tomorrow could be fun! i was thinking myabe i messed up with jake..and i should try to fix things..at least fix them to a point... but then i realized...the other perosn needs to actually attempt to want me back. mentioning things doesnt work. there are other people who make more of an effort... and they dont even "love" me. hence why i am hanging out with one of these men tomorrow, and tonight i was thinking jake can come over..and we can hang out or something. i dont like someone who tells me how they miss me and love me and wish everything wouldve worked , and then when asking them if they want to hang out,they say i dont think i have any plans...so, maybe. just call me. and then, oh...i told this person id hang out with them.....fuck that. there goes that last chance at ever attempting to fix shit. but, like i said before..it doesnt matter. at this point in my life, i have no dignity....no shame...no morals, no values....you know. the usual. so tonight....im going to drink this skyy...and then my mikes...and hang out in the hot tub...and play this game with these kids...and hopefully get drunk enough not to think about anything. and tomorrow ill hopefully do the same thing./..with more people...that arent related! and then things should get interesting...hopefully...but, who knows? i dont care anymore...i figured the only perons i really cared about, okay, theres two...byt mostly just the one...the only person i ever truly loved...they dont even give a fuck...so why bother anymore? im 17...if i cant have the only one person i REALLY want..or the only person i loved....then ill just do whatever i want. who seriously cares? and no, even if i want to try for jake again..i wont let mself. if someone wants me, they better make one hell of a fucking effort....bc now, for this person, im fucking gone...and there isnt another chance...so i hope they r fucking happy..and i hope that was one hell of a party...bc any chance of us being together ever again in the future...is now fucking done. and thats fine...bc i now have a few people im going to visit tomorrow....and like i said before, i have no shame.
MY COMMENT
Title: WoW
Haha, thats great, you have no right to be mad at me for anything. Maybe i just need some time away from you, and im not ready to try to "fix things" yet. You really hurt me, and i wanted to just ran back to you after it, but i cant. When it came down to it, i really just dont want to hang out with you yet.
"bc any chance of us being together ever again in the future...is now fucking done"
Thats fucking great that you base this off of one night, becuase i had made previous plans that i forgot about. But no, Adam fucks you over again and again, and you go back to him without a second thought?
I love how i have to be perfect in every way but he can just do whatever the hell he wants.
Dont give me any more bullshit in your livejournal about me fucking you over anymore. Its like you expect me to bounce right back, and becuase im not, your making it seem like i never loved you, or never fucking cared. If I did to you, what you did to me, you wouldnt ever even talk to me again! This is bullshit. Think about what you are saying before you type it.
"there are other people who make more of an effort..."
The way you look at life is so skewed in the wrong direction. You make it seem like because someone gives you attention they "really like you!" You seroiusly need to open up your eyes. I apologize that i thought i could handle hanging out with now, but i cant, im not ready yet. But apparantly giving you attention is all that matters
"...if i cant have the only one person i REALLY want..or the only person i loved...."
Once again, more bullshit. You tell me on the phone that you dont want Adam anymore, and your getting over the fact that you were obsessed with him (after Matt helped you apparently), and you want to fix things with me. but wait...hmm, am i stupid or does this phrase refer to Adam!?!? once again taking priority over me! WoW big surprise! Now can you see why i dont want to hang out with you yet? Get your fucking feeelings and emotions together before you talk to me again.
"there goes that last chance at ever attempting to fix shit."
Haha, im glad that in the entire 6 days we have been apart, you have been trying so hard to fix things between us, and we have tried to hang out so many times! (sarcasm) No. Fuck that. Hmm...how many times did you blow me off last week? The answer to that is a fucking lot.
I hope you read this, and finally realize how far from reality your perspective on life is. But you won't, you'll just justify what you said somehow becuase you are never wrong. I pity the next guy who tries to have a serious relationship with you.
Oh also...you know how i got over you? Do you have any idea? The answer is not fucking someone the day after we broke up, thats your forte. I decided you were crazy. Saturday night, on the phone, you were making no sense whatsoever. None. You dont even know who you are or what you want.
Oh, it was a fun party, and it was worth it. Just what i needed right now :) Its nice to cuddle/makeout with someone who is actually mature! :) :) Have a nice life!
Pwnd
Jesse + Jake + 9 girls + more alcohol then we can drink + Napolean Dynamite + beer pong + pool = a way good time
Like, i dont even know what to say, it was just great. What sucked though was that i swear i was hungover before i even went to sleep. It was so weird though, like everyone was randomly hooking up. Also these guys came over and everyone went outside to smoke, and they all seemed really old... Haha, ill never forget the tone of Jesse's voice when he yells upstairs in the morning "Where's...Jake?" Pause. Emily: "Uh...he's in my room." Followed by him walking in the room..."No way, no fucking way, you guys are in alot of trouble, your grounded" Funniest thing ever lol. Also, me, Emily, Jesse, and Mary went to Denny's in the morning, and now i feel like im giong to puke becuase i ate a alot amount ugh. This girls name was Mary Cathren Gallager...which is really fuckingn weird becuase thats the exact same name from the nun girl on saturday night live. AND, she was a catholic school girl too. Hopefully today we are going to drive out to Macedonia to play In The Groove.
Also; (btw, any "quotes" in my response are just phrases taken from Trish's L J)
TRISH'S L J ENTRY:
i love the way my dad explains what a yegger bomb does...
So, life is better but only because right now my dad bought me jenz and mike a boat load of alcohol, wetre all drinking it, and tomorrow could be fun! i was thinking myabe i messed up with jake..and i should try to fix things..at least fix them to a point... but then i realized...the other perosn needs to actually attempt to want me back. mentioning things doesnt work. there are other people who make more of an effort... and they dont even "love" me. hence why i am hanging out with one of these men tomorrow, and tonight i was thinking jake can come over..and we can hang out or something. i dont like someone who tells me how they miss me and love me and wish everything wouldve worked , and then when asking them if they want to hang out,they say i dont think i have any plans...so, maybe. just call me. and then, oh...i told this person id hang out with them.....fuck that. there goes that last chance at ever attempting to fix shit. but, like i said before..it doesnt matter. at this point in my life, i have no dignity....no shame...no morals, no values....you know. the usual. so tonight....im going to drink this skyy...and then my mikes...and hang out in the hot tub...and play this game with these kids...and hopefully get drunk enough not to think about anything. and tomorrow ill hopefully do the same thing./..with more people...that arent related! and then things should get interesting...hopefully...but, who knows? i dont care anymore...i figured the only perons i really cared about, okay, theres two...byt mostly just the one...the only person i ever truly loved...they dont even give a fuck...so why bother anymore? im 17...if i cant have the only one person i REALLY want..or the only person i loved....then ill just do whatever i want. who seriously cares? and no, even if i want to try for jake again..i wont let mself. if someone wants me, they better make one hell of a fucking effort....bc now, for this person, im fucking gone...and there isnt another chance...so i hope they r fucking happy..and i hope that was one hell of a party...bc any chance of us being together ever again in the future...is now fucking done. and thats fine...bc i now have a few people im going to visit tomorrow....and like i said before, i have no shame.
MY COMMENT
Title: WoW
Haha, thats great, you have no right to be mad at me for anything. Maybe i just need some time away from you, and im not ready to try to "fix things" yet. You really hurt me, and i wanted to just ran back to you after it, but i cant. When it came down to it, i really just dont want to hang out with you yet.
"bc any chance of us being together ever again in the future...is now fucking done"
Thats fucking great that you base this off of one night, becuase i had made previous plans that i forgot about. But no, Adam fucks you over again and again, and you go back to him without a second thought?
I love how i have to be perfect in every way but he can just do whatever the hell he wants.
Dont give me any more bullshit in your livejournal about me fucking you over anymore. Its like you expect me to bounce right back, and becuase im not, your making it seem like i never loved you, or never fucking cared. If I did to you, what you did to me, you wouldnt ever even talk to me again! This is bullshit. Think about what you are saying before you type it.
"there are other people who make more of an effort..."
The way you look at life is so skewed in the wrong direction. You make it seem like because someone gives you attention they "really like you!" You seroiusly need to open up your eyes. I apologize that i thought i could handle hanging out with now, but i cant, im not ready yet. But apparantly giving you attention is all that matters
"...if i cant have the only one person i REALLY want..or the only person i loved...."
Once again, more bullshit. You tell me on the phone that you dont want Adam anymore, and your getting over the fact that you were obsessed with him (after Matt helped you apparently), and you want to fix things with me. but wait...hmm, am i stupid or does this phrase refer to Adam!?!? once again taking priority over me! WoW big surprise! Now can you see why i dont want to hang out with you yet? Get your fucking feeelings and emotions together before you talk to me again.
"there goes that last chance at ever attempting to fix shit."
Haha, im glad that in the entire 6 days we have been apart, you have been trying so hard to fix things between us, and we have tried to hang out so many times! (sarcasm) No. Fuck that. Hmm...how many times did you blow me off last week? The answer to that is a fucking lot.
I hope you read this, and finally realize how far from reality your perspective on life is. But you won't, you'll just justify what you said somehow becuase you are never wrong. I pity the next guy who tries to have a serious relationship with you.
Oh also...you know how i got over you? Do you have any idea? The answer is not fucking someone the day after we broke up, thats your forte. I decided you were crazy. Saturday night, on the phone, you were making no sense whatsoever. None. You dont even know who you are or what you want.
Oh, it was a fun party, and it was worth it. Just what i needed right now :) Its nice to cuddle/makeout with someone who is actually mature! :) :) Have a nice life!
Pwnd