Gumbi says... touch your toes.
So I was at the arcade.
Played DrumMania so many times I have ouchie blisters on both hands. Played Pump it Up a lot to get in the top 5 records on the whole machine... That was fun. A'd Afronova Stealth in front of Gumbi and a couple other pretty hot guys... That surprised me. And then AA'd So Deep 1x Flat in front of them. Gumbi WAS making fun of me, but then he told me I was "the best, or one of the best, female DDR players [he's] ever seen." Hot. Didn't see him too much, but he kept teasing me every time I talked to him. And then I said something after he was kinda teasing me and then he started laughing at how defensive I am.
Holy moly. I actually never realized that. Well I sort of did, but.. wow.. I never knew the extent of it. I'm ALWAYS defensive. Anything anybody says that could possibly be offensive to me, I take to the extreme, even if I don't show it... and I wouldn't exactly call myself a drama queen. But I've been like this ever since I was really little. Self esteem issue? Example - One time last year I was at the doctor's, and when they couldn't really find anything wrong with me, my doctor seemed convinced that it was all in my head. He lectured me on this to the point where I was in tears and I couldn't say anything else. Hmmm... You always hear that you shouldn't let what other people say get to you, but I guess I never really applied it. What an idiot. WAIT, I'M DOING IT AGAIN. >-<
I'm not an idiot.
I'm good at DDR.
I'm smart.
I care.
I deserve to be loved.
I have issues but I can work through them in time.
Interesting. K. New goal. Yes, I like goals, maybe a little too much, but I'm ok with that.
Goal: Any time I hear something that might be offensive to me, consider it and decide whether it is true or not. If not, disregard it. If so, decide whether or not it can be changed. And don't deny that it's right.
I'm really gonna try to better myself this year. I think this whole entry is a little bit corny, but I also think I need it.
EDIT: Dang, this is already hard.. cause.. I'm trying not to thing negative thoughts about myself either. And it's only been a little while.
Played DrumMania so many times I have ouchie blisters on both hands. Played Pump it Up a lot to get in the top 5 records on the whole machine... That was fun. A'd Afronova Stealth in front of Gumbi and a couple other pretty hot guys... That surprised me. And then AA'd So Deep 1x Flat in front of them. Gumbi WAS making fun of me, but then he told me I was "the best, or one of the best, female DDR players [he's] ever seen." Hot. Didn't see him too much, but he kept teasing me every time I talked to him. And then I said something after he was kinda teasing me and then he started laughing at how defensive I am.
Holy moly. I actually never realized that. Well I sort of did, but.. wow.. I never knew the extent of it. I'm ALWAYS defensive. Anything anybody says that could possibly be offensive to me, I take to the extreme, even if I don't show it... and I wouldn't exactly call myself a drama queen. But I've been like this ever since I was really little. Self esteem issue? Example - One time last year I was at the doctor's, and when they couldn't really find anything wrong with me, my doctor seemed convinced that it was all in my head. He lectured me on this to the point where I was in tears and I couldn't say anything else. Hmmm... You always hear that you shouldn't let what other people say get to you, but I guess I never really applied it. What an idiot. WAIT, I'M DOING IT AGAIN. >-<
I'm not an idiot.
I'm good at DDR.
I'm smart.
I care.
I deserve to be loved.
I have issues but I can work through them in time.
Interesting. K. New goal. Yes, I like goals, maybe a little too much, but I'm ok with that.
Goal: Any time I hear something that might be offensive to me, consider it and decide whether it is true or not. If not, disregard it. If so, decide whether or not it can be changed. And don't deny that it's right.
I'm really gonna try to better myself this year. I think this whole entry is a little bit corny, but I also think I need it.
EDIT: Dang, this is already hard.. cause.. I'm trying not to thing negative thoughts about myself either. And it's only been a little while.