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my cat dusty has been missing since sunday.
im really upset about it.
shes my best friend since we were four.
this is why i have been sad if you've seen me, or not seen me at all.
i have a lot of deep sadness and anxiety right now about it.
i miss dusty.
today was really difficult. there were some nice moments of co-dependent lounging, but it was hard today.
i got my first speeding ticket. 40 in a 20. bullshit.
i love closeness when you dont have sex. it seems more real, like you can go for walks and hop from branch to stones in the woods and dress up like a wizard and princess without that nagging of SEX SEX SEX. i'm not sure if its more like children, or just sweet and simple.
i also like getting to know people who are similar to me. it shows me how strange i am. but more tolerable than i realized on the whole.
i am going to read "women" by bukowski now, i'm not sure how kitschy that is.
i wish people like rk were still sane friends.
i am not a fan of machiavellian principles. i realize that i REALLY dont approve of condoning cruelty for one. i also have a lot of other things that i dont like about machiavelli, but i'm really exhausted and he hurts my brain.
im really upset about it.
shes my best friend since we were four.
this is why i have been sad if you've seen me, or not seen me at all.
i have a lot of deep sadness and anxiety right now about it.
i miss dusty.
today was really difficult. there were some nice moments of co-dependent lounging, but it was hard today.
i got my first speeding ticket. 40 in a 20. bullshit.
i love closeness when you dont have sex. it seems more real, like you can go for walks and hop from branch to stones in the woods and dress up like a wizard and princess without that nagging of SEX SEX SEX. i'm not sure if its more like children, or just sweet and simple.
i also like getting to know people who are similar to me. it shows me how strange i am. but more tolerable than i realized on the whole.
i am going to read "women" by bukowski now, i'm not sure how kitschy that is.
i wish people like rk were still sane friends.
i am not a fan of machiavellian principles. i realize that i REALLY dont approve of condoning cruelty for one. i also have a lot of other things that i dont like about machiavelli, but i'm really exhausted and he hurts my brain.