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So... what to say what to say... first of all i need to say IM SO SORRY to a certain person... who prolly doesnt even read this but just in case you know.. i really would like to talk to you about this.. you deserve better...ummm so yeah... other than being a complete bitch this weekend it was alright i guess... i was so mean... and i really dont know why.. i mean shew... ive never been this mean before... especially to him the person i love more than anything... i dont know what got into me... i deserve to have him not want to talk to me... but i really wish he would!!!but ANYWAY... moving on... its is now dead week at school and i dont know why they call it that because im still really busy... all the time...but i have a few finals this week and the rest next week and then on friday the 13th ill be home... i dreamed last night that we had an accident and i was pinned in the car.. i couldnt get out and i died because the car went into a lake.. like my mom and dad and benji all got out but i couldnt... i dont know where that came from.. maybe it was because i feel so bad about being to mean to him that... maybe had something to do with it... oh well.. it was just a dream right?!?!? well sometime soon i have to make my schedule out for UVAW..yay! im so counting down the days till this is all over.. only 9 after today... but ya know i look back on it and ive learned SO much... like ive become a better person for getting out even if it was for a semester.. i mean its a lot different than staying home to go to school... and i dont care what you say... if youre home.. yeah youre in college.. but you have good food all the time YOUR bed and no crappy dorms to live in unless you chose to live there... and lemme tell you.... dorm life SUCKS... sure there are ppl everywhere.. but really now sharing space with a complete stranger isnt really fun... especially if you dont get along... then its a living hell... but its only made me stronger and im really glad i came... but im also really glad to be comming home... shew... get me outta tennessee..... my parents are comming up next thursday to pack my things up to go home.. i dont think we will leave till like friday morning tho... my last exam is next thursday so i hvae no classes on friday we will prolly leave about 9 that mornin which will put me home at about 2.. then maybe i can come see YOU and we can talk about what happened, which was all my fault.. you didnt do anything...im sorry... i hope that you will accept my apology and we can move on... i love you baby!!! so other than that i dont know ... i guess ill end this here see you soon

* never take for granted what you have with someone... that could all change and it could all be your fault, and then all you can feel is helpless because youve done it to yourself. but you hope through it all they love you anyway*

MichelleDenise