I'm Lost...
I feel so confused in life. Like there is so much for me to do but i can never start any of it. Like my heart is racing but my brain is sleeping. I don't know anything anymore I just want to find something in my life that makes me happy, truly happy and stays in my mind forever. Not to say that Lisa hasn't been a a wonderful girlfriend and she makes my life so much better. But I cant see why I should get up in the morning, why i go to band and school or even why I live. I just don't know anymore, I thought I did for a while but now nothing seems right. Its hard to contend with my thoughts day in and day out when I have to keep up with my insane life. I just want a break from it all to sleep for days on end and not wake up for a long time. Cant I just feel free again. Cant I get that feeling back where I'm so happy all the time and I'm not constantly bothered by something else in my thoughts that my mind conjures up.