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ever have the feeling like you just want to punch something. so hard that it could break your hand. but you don't feel it at the time because you are so numb to feeling. feeling. feeling anything all. numb to life. to the place where you are. to the surrounding that you are in. so numb that it hurts to wake up in the morning and know that you have another shitty day ahead of you. and there is nothing that you can do to change it. getting up. getting ready for that shit day. you still have the confidence in yourself that you are going to be amazing. but only for you. because fuck the people you are around. you know you don't deserve it. but you still choose to wear your heart on your sleeve. constantly getting hurt. but they don't ever seem to own up to it. but you are still there when they need tthe most. and always will be. yeah. i want to move. right now. so i have thought a lot about it. and. i am moving as soon as i can. far away.