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[sawkerkid]

i am drowning in my own pool of tears.
i feel like i am being ripped apart.
i don't know how to deal with it.
i thought things would be alright.
i thought i could handle this.
this. aloneness.
now all that i can think is why.
why.
am i here.
do i feel alone.
am i jealous of everyone.
do i feel like i have nothing anymore.
does the thought of quitting even cross my mind.
how do i get away.
i just want to run. away.
run to what i think i know.
what i think i want.
what is going to make me happy right now.
i don't know
but i hope that i find out soon.
i have never felt this before.