Computer withdrawal...
Since it's so hard to type a proper entry on my phone, I didn't mention the other major thing (or rather, one major and one sorta-major thing) going on.
In March, I went to Wegmans late at night. When I returned to my car in the parking lot after shopping, I noticed that the front bumper was kind of hanging off my car. I imagine I may have run over a curb or something of that nature, but I really don't remember actually doing it. I didn't want to call the insurance because I'm already on their shitlist from Rebecca's accident last year. I figured it was just cosmetic and I could let it be. So I let it be, for months.
Last week, I was driving out my parents' house when I heard a horrible scraping sound. When I got there, I checked out the bumper, and there was a piece of plastic which fell down and was dragging underneath, along with a mass of wires. To make a long story short, I need a new bumper. The car goes into tomorrow. $830, plus three days of a rental. It's always something...
My managers also attempted, again, to strong-arm me into a sales position a few days ago. They took me into the office and double-teamed me, talking about what a "great opportunity" it is, how I should "seriously consider it," and how the company was working to eliminate my position. I asked, "Are you going to lay me off if I don't accept?" They said no and that they couldn't force me, yet they kept talking as if they were threatening my job. I stuck to my guns about not going to sales. They seemed disappointed in me.
I've had plenty of time to think about the whole sales thing. If it was really something that would be a challenge, something that I could grow and learn from, that would be one thing. But it's completely contradictory to my nature, and I don't know a single sales rep. who isn't miserable. I doubt they'll lay me off, but I'm mentally preparing myself for it anyway. I have to trust that if I step off the edge, the universe will be there to catch me. I have a lot of job skills, I'm marketable. I will be okay. I'd rather be laid off with a nice severance package and be able to file for unemployment if need be than be fired for poor numbers and not making quota...
In March, I went to Wegmans late at night. When I returned to my car in the parking lot after shopping, I noticed that the front bumper was kind of hanging off my car. I imagine I may have run over a curb or something of that nature, but I really don't remember actually doing it. I didn't want to call the insurance because I'm already on their shitlist from Rebecca's accident last year. I figured it was just cosmetic and I could let it be. So I let it be, for months.
Last week, I was driving out my parents' house when I heard a horrible scraping sound. When I got there, I checked out the bumper, and there was a piece of plastic which fell down and was dragging underneath, along with a mass of wires. To make a long story short, I need a new bumper. The car goes into tomorrow. $830, plus three days of a rental. It's always something...
My managers also attempted, again, to strong-arm me into a sales position a few days ago. They took me into the office and double-teamed me, talking about what a "great opportunity" it is, how I should "seriously consider it," and how the company was working to eliminate my position. I asked, "Are you going to lay me off if I don't accept?" They said no and that they couldn't force me, yet they kept talking as if they were threatening my job. I stuck to my guns about not going to sales. They seemed disappointed in me.
I've had plenty of time to think about the whole sales thing. If it was really something that would be a challenge, something that I could grow and learn from, that would be one thing. But it's completely contradictory to my nature, and I don't know a single sales rep. who isn't miserable. I doubt they'll lay me off, but I'm mentally preparing myself for it anyway. I have to trust that if I step off the edge, the universe will be there to catch me. I have a lot of job skills, I'm marketable. I will be okay. I'd rather be laid off with a nice severance package and be able to file for unemployment if need be than be fired for poor numbers and not making quota...