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daddy got married yesterday, it was beautiful. i didn't cry until i put daddy and shelia on the plane. i missed grandma saturday. I had her rosary with me, that made me feel better. I went to say hi today. you never really appreciate somethings or people until they are gone. Grandmas gone, i miss her more and more every day. Shelias youngest son Chris is buried 12 plots away from grandma and grandpa. I never met him but every last one of his friends speak so highly of him i can only picture him to be like jamie. Julia is right across the street, she still doesnt have a headstone. I wonder if they are looking for a family plot thing are working on something elaborate. Elaborate would be her style. She would appreciate something like that. I miss her too.
Speaking of missing people, i think i am going to go crazy with jamie so far away this semester. I miss her so much.
when i went to the cemetery i cried.
i cried because i dont wanna mess up, because im happy for daddy, because i miss grandma, because i dont love me, because i love my jamie, because im stress to the breaking point,because im broke, because i wont let my self have what i want, because i dont know whats good for me, and i cried just because tears felt good.
so why do i still feel like shit?
Speaking of missing people, i think i am going to go crazy with jamie so far away this semester. I miss her so much.
when i went to the cemetery i cried.
i cried because i dont wanna mess up, because im happy for daddy, because i miss grandma, because i dont love me, because i love my jamie, because im stress to the breaking point,because im broke, because i wont let my self have what i want, because i dont know whats good for me, and i cried just because tears felt good.
so why do i still feel like shit?