Sep 18, 2005 00:57
VampDoll40: so me and tony are gonna be just friends for awhile starting monday
Shadow of Lyte: Ouch
VampDoll40: lol not really
VampDoll40: i feel like i need it
Shadow of Lyte: Getting sick of him?
VampDoll40: not at all
VampDoll40: i just feel so trapped sometimes i need to explore abit you know? i sometimes wonder if i missed something and i dont want to have any regrets coming out of high school i need a break to be a little wild for awhile
VampDoll40: and if everything goes well, ill relight our love fire lol and if not we both move on
VampDoll40: it'll*
VampDoll40: do you think thats stupid...?
Shadow of Lyte: Well
Shadow of Lyte: I know how a situation can seem in a relationship
Shadow of Lyte: And taking a break seems like the right thing
Shadow of Lyte: But the only way to truly know if you are missing out
Shadow of Lyte: Is to do something with someone else
Shadow of Lyte: Maybe its just me
VampDoll40: thats not what im planning at all actually
VampDoll40: you have to remember we are in completly different places and situations
VampDoll40: i know this is what i need and i dont do it i will not be happy. he holds on to me so tight that i want to run away and he needs to let go a bit
VampDoll40: if i*
Shadow of Lyte: lol I think you misunderstood what I was saying
Shadow of Lyte: If you really think you need your space thats fine, but from a personal observation, Ive never seen a relationship stand on its own two feet when it gets to this point
Shadow of Lyte: It starts off with people needing breaks
Shadow of Lyte: Then the two people get confused
Shadow of Lyte: Then drama starts because one or the other
Shadow of Lyte: Doesnt have any clue
Shadow of Lyte: What the other person wants
Shadow of Lyte: And then ta da!
VampDoll40: lol if thats what is supposed to happen so be it like i said we will move on lol
Shadow of Lyte: Yeppers
Shadow of Lyte: lol Personally Id sooner just break up with the person
Shadow of Lyte: I mean, if you really feel suffocated, pft, too young to feel like you need to be with him
Shadow of Lyte: High school relationships are only good for learning, they dont last for a reason
Shadow of Lyte: (Im not saying this is applying for you)
Shadow of Lyte: But honestly, think about it outside of the box, highschool relationships are all about the feel good effect, no one is planning on being with that person forever
VampDoll40: lol it really doesnt
Shadow of Lyte: Cept those few people
VampDoll40: i never want to lose him that what i said to him. i just need it, i just do i dont know why
Shadow of Lyte: lol And thats why I hate relationships
Shadow of Lyte: Women are just too fucking confusing
VampDoll40: im not confusing i have a hard time telling you my true feeling
VampDoll40: s
Shadow of Lyte: lol Oh right, so if you werent confusing before
Shadow of Lyte: You sure are now
VampDoll40: lol
Shadow of Lyte: Least you cleared that up
Shadow of Lyte: From confusing to confusing
Shadow of Lyte: Nice
VampDoll40: your not making me feel any better lol
Shadow of Lyte: lol Thats not my job
Shadow of Lyte: You brought this up, Im telling you like it is
Shadow of Lyte: You dont know why you need your space
Shadow of Lyte: And if you do you wont tell me
Shadow of Lyte: I can only go on what you give
VampDoll40: yeah i guess
Shadow of Lyte: What do you mean you guess lol
Shadow of Lyte: Its true
Shadow of Lyte: What do you want me to say
Shadow of Lyte: I cant guess how you feel
Shadow of Lyte: I mean if you wanted my opinion, you have to tell me all the facts including how you feel
Shadow of Lyte: Otherwise I can only give you, what you give me lol
VampDoll40: i cant explain its almost like i need to test our relationship because i have doubs about hoe real it is. you said it yourself this is highschool me and him dont really know anything yet what if we are not really the real thing
Shadow of Lyte: lol Do you think thats fair to Tony
Shadow of Lyte: Cause if you feel like you need to test it, you cant just play with someone's feelings like that
Shadow of Lyte: Even if this is a high school relationship
Shadow of Lyte: If thats your only reason
Shadow of Lyte: Thats kinda bullshit
Shadow of Lyte: lol
Shadow of Lyte: The feelings are real in any sense
Shadow of Lyte: Even if the relationship is serious or isnt, it all hurts the same
VampDoll40: im not playing with his emotions
VampDoll40: your really not getting anything im saying lol
Shadow of Lyte: Sure I am
Shadow of Lyte: You need to test the validity
Shadow of Lyte: Is it real
Shadow of Lyte: Or is it fake
Shadow of Lyte: Am I the only one in this
Shadow of Lyte: Or are we both in for the long haul
Shadow of Lyte: Is this serious
Shadow of Lyte: Or just another guy
Shadow of Lyte: Right?
VampDoll40: thats not what im testing
Shadow of Lyte: Then what are you testiung
Shadow of Lyte: -u
VampDoll40: im testing how we both handle this its a relationship challenge
Shadow of Lyte: lol So then this is a game
Shadow of Lyte: Like I was saying
Shadow of Lyte: lol Youre doing it just to see what happens
Shadow of Lyte: And you just said so
Shadow of Lyte: lol I stand by what I said, that's still kinda shitty
Shadow of Lyte: If you were doing that to me, and I found out THAT was your reason
Shadow of Lyte: Id say fuck you
Shadow of Lyte: lol
VampDoll40: TJ you dont understand
VampDoll40: i dont want to talk about it with you anymore
Shadow of Lyte: lol Thats fine
VampDoll40: you make me feel like shit
Shadow of Lyte: You brought me into it
VampDoll40: and have even more doubts when all i want is to find something out about myself
VampDoll40: i know i did
VampDoll40: i think that was a mistake now
VampDoll40: sorry
Shadow of Lyte: Im just sayin'
Shadow of Lyte: Its pretty selfish what youre doing to him
Shadow of Lyte: But it aint my relationship
Shadow of Lyte: If hes fine with it
Shadow of Lyte: Thats cool then
VampDoll40: im not fucking being selfish. and seriously how dare you call me so when all i think about is how everything i do will affect him. IM SMOTHERED. i need this i dont care what you think you dont know how i feel and you dont know the whole story let alont the situation
Shadow of Lyte: lol Im going on exactly what you told me, its your test, not his, just to see how you will react, if you want me to understand it in a better way than that, maybe choose what you say better
Shadow of Lyte: Im only telling you exactly what you are saying to me
VampDoll40: and i just told you that i cant explain it. you assume way too much you like to fill in blanks
VampDoll40: it wasnt just my desicion by the way.
Shadow of Lyte: lol I didnt assume anything, everything I said, is exactly out of context of what you told me
Shadow of Lyte: If you couldnt explain it right thats not my fault
Shadow of Lyte: you could just as easily have told me not to be literal about what you were saying
VampDoll40: im not playing with his emotions i matter too my feeling matter too
Shadow of Lyte: Hey that's great, then don't say YOU are the one testing the relationship
Shadow of Lyte: Just say "we decided to take a break"
Shadow of Lyte: Gotta say what you mean
VampDoll40: i didnt say anything about who made the stupid desicion
Shadow of Lyte: Ill show you
VampDoll40: i came here looking for support thats all
VampDoll40: forget i said anything
VampDoll40: now i have stupid fucking doubts again
Shadow of Lyte: VampDoll40: i cant explain its almost like i need to test our relationship because i have doubs about hoe real it is.
VampDoll40: im testing how we both handle this its a relationship challenge
Shadow of Lyte: I cant make it any clear that you made it sound like it was up to you
Shadow of Lyte: Ahh gross
Shadow of Lyte: lol
Shadow of Lyte: The font is attacking my face
VampDoll40: that doesnt mean anything about who made the desicion we are both doing this for different reasons
Shadow of Lyte: How does it not mean anything lol, you flat out said YOU were the one who is testing the relationship
Shadow of Lyte: But hey its all good
Shadow of Lyte: Your relationship with tony doesnt matter to me like it does to you, lol next time say what you mean if you are gonna try talking to me about something personal, otherwise this would probably happen again
VampDoll40: im not even really testing anything for fuck sake
Shadow of Lyte: lol Next time say what you mean then
Shadow of Lyte: Dont yell at me like Im jumping to conclusions
Shadow of Lyte: When what I am saying
Shadow of Lyte: Is exactly what you're telling me
VampDoll40: its not really my fault that you dont understand me sometimes i jump around thats how i am my mind races
VampDoll40: im not yelling
VampDoll40: im upset not angry
Shadow of Lyte: lol Well whatever
And yea it is your fault I dont understand you, you can't talk to me like Im supposed to know how you converse
VampDoll40: wow i never realized how shitty you make me feel as a person and make me doubt myself
Shadow of Lyte: lol Well this whole mess could have been avoided
Shadow of Lyte: All you had to do
Shadow of Lyte: Was be clear about what you were saying
VampDoll40: i cant make you understand anything your not open enouph to understand yourself i might be confusing but im not purpously trying to trick you
Shadow of Lyte: Whos tricking anyone
Shadow of Lyte: This whole thing is real simple
Shadow of Lyte: You told me one thing you didnt exactly mean how it sounded
Shadow of Lyte: But how was I supposed to know exactly what you meant
Shadow of Lyte: You just guessed I could know how you talk
Shadow of Lyte: And now you are blaming me for telling you this is your fault
Shadow of Lyte: lol Which it is
Shadow of Lyte: I didnt ask "Hey hows the relationship going"
Shadow of Lyte: And I didnt assume people know how I talk
Shadow of Lyte: We could have avoided this whole thing
Shadow of Lyte: If you had just not tried to blame me for not understanding you
Shadow of Lyte: Its not my fault I dont understand what you are trying to say
Shadow of Lyte: Especially if you are telling me things you dont exactly mean
VampDoll40: like i said i cant make you understand i dont know how i cant explain my feelings and situation and do justice to it
Shadow of Lyte: And thats the whole problem
Shadow of Lyte: You were talking to me for my opinion
Shadow of Lyte: But how can I give you an accurate when
Shadow of Lyte: When you cant be accurate
Shadow of Lyte: Dont tell me I make you feel shitty, its not my fault you arent accurate
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It's not even really arguing. Im laughing, she's upset.
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lol Trying to blame me for you not speaking clearly.
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Bullshit on a stick.