So this is the new year?

[savvybug]

With every movement
everythings set.
I drink till I'm sober
and starve again.
If you had the answers
cause I wasn't sharp,
Why was it ending?
Why did it start?
I do declare you were all that I wanted
I was so stubborn,
the risks were undaunted.
If you had the answers
and I wasn't told,
that makes you selfish,
heartless,
and cold.
If I'm sent packing
I'm giving up
rights to the children,
the keys to the truck.
If you have the answers
Why was it hard
to lock the door and
keep up your guard?
I've nothing to say that we haven't gone over already.
I've nothing to say that we haven't gone over already.

Am I being too melodramatic? Perhaps, but it feels good.
And off I go to face the firing squad, my brother's wedding, alone.