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so, life never really happens the way you expect it to.
at least not for long.
and i guess i'm mostly okay with that.
i have a lot to look forward to.
i am only 21. i'm young. i kind of feel like i'm living all for myself right now. and i kind of want it that way. i guess it's not that i'm living for myself, it's just that i'm trying to figure out how to best live in a way that is not just for me. but that requires a good long hard look into myself.
i'm learning a lot. i like a lot of those things. i've let myself get deeply hurt. and i've experienced something that i never imagined was possible. and i am making my own decisions. i'm learning to not be so scared of everyone else.
i still don't know who i am or who i want to be. and though you may see me as farther away than ever before, i know that i've never been closer.
that being said, it may still take me the rest of my life to figure it out.
for now, i'm happy, and i'm looking forward to my future.
maybe one day i'll be able to say something more noble and selfless.
for now, i can rest assured that my decisions are my own.
...that's all.