fucking ache
it hurts so bad
down in my chest and belly
hands constantly shaking
on high alert and nervy
i know they say you gotta be good
all on your own
but it’s all i can do to make it
through the day intact
it hurts so empty&heavy in my body
a void
a fucking ache
i can only numb
with drink&distraction
still have bruises to remind me
of his idea of my worth
fading so slow
it’s cruel to see in the mirror
every morning and night
he was never the one for me
i was never in love with that
incredibly interesting human being
but I did like his art and his skin
and i’m just so tired
galaxy colors of lust&lies