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Have you ever said some ridiculous mean thing about someone out of anger, and then they found out about it?
Yea, I did one of those the other day.
I didn't understand why that person suddenly hated me.
It all makes sense now.
Whoopsies.
Oh well, after what you've done to me...you sort deserved it.
I think I met someone worthy of my interest.
It's really hard to trust anyone after being used and treated like a piece of shit on the ground for 6 months of my life.
but hopefully I can get over that and pursue what seems to be the beginning of something good.
I hate crushes because that person always seems so perfect at first, then you get to KNOW THEM know them.
Ehhh hopefully he doesn't turn out like the last one.
Please god, don't screw me over again.
ps. i was looking through old entries from the summer and found this:
"I hope one day you look back on this and realize that maybe you had someone who truly did care about you. Maybe you had someone who truly loved you. And until you can appreciate the fact that I risked it all just to have a chance with you again...have a nice life."
Yea, so much for staying strong with that. I wish I could copy and paste that whole entry because thats exactly how I feel AGAIN 3 months later. isnt that sad that we go through this sick cycle over and over so much that I have already went through this stage with you more than 2 times now? You think I would have learned the first time. Well, I assure you.. this will be the last time I would have went through all of this shit just to take another shot for you.
hallelujah!
Yea, I did one of those the other day.
I didn't understand why that person suddenly hated me.
It all makes sense now.
Whoopsies.
Oh well, after what you've done to me...you sort deserved it.
I think I met someone worthy of my interest.
It's really hard to trust anyone after being used and treated like a piece of shit on the ground for 6 months of my life.
but hopefully I can get over that and pursue what seems to be the beginning of something good.
I hate crushes because that person always seems so perfect at first, then you get to KNOW THEM know them.
Ehhh hopefully he doesn't turn out like the last one.
Please god, don't screw me over again.
ps. i was looking through old entries from the summer and found this:
"I hope one day you look back on this and realize that maybe you had someone who truly did care about you. Maybe you had someone who truly loved you. And until you can appreciate the fact that I risked it all just to have a chance with you again...have a nice life."
Yea, so much for staying strong with that. I wish I could copy and paste that whole entry because thats exactly how I feel AGAIN 3 months later. isnt that sad that we go through this sick cycle over and over so much that I have already went through this stage with you more than 2 times now? You think I would have learned the first time. Well, I assure you.. this will be the last time I would have went through all of this shit just to take another shot for you.
hallelujah!