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Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner. Sometimes I fell like my only friend is the city I live in, the city of angels. Lonely as I am, together we cry.
Is it sad that my favourite thing to do is sit on my roof top late at night, gazing at the stars while crying?...not to mension the cigarette, oh yes. I just can't wait until night time so I can do that.
I feel like I've slowly dug myself a very deep hole. I'm sitting at the bottom of this hole, frustrated, confused, sad, lonely, and most of all- tierd from digging. I want to stop myself from digging this already deep hole, I want to get out- but I don't think that Ill be able to do so with out heartbreak, and more hardwork then I've done in my entire life.
It's over. I'm ending it because he was too close to doing it. I don't want to be hurt that way- I rather be hurt having to do it. He dug himself into his own hole and is going to have to make incredibly drastic changes to get out of it. He will never do it, and I have the chance to. I just need to wait untill the perfect time and moment. Im crying just thinking of the hurt look on his face. That is the last thing in the world I would ever want to see. I saw that look last night from him when I gave him that look.
Im so heartbroken and destroyed right now.
Is it sad that my favourite thing to do is sit on my roof top late at night, gazing at the stars while crying?...not to mension the cigarette, oh yes. I just can't wait until night time so I can do that.
I feel like I've slowly dug myself a very deep hole. I'm sitting at the bottom of this hole, frustrated, confused, sad, lonely, and most of all- tierd from digging. I want to stop myself from digging this already deep hole, I want to get out- but I don't think that Ill be able to do so with out heartbreak, and more hardwork then I've done in my entire life.
It's over. I'm ending it because he was too close to doing it. I don't want to be hurt that way- I rather be hurt having to do it. He dug himself into his own hole and is going to have to make incredibly drastic changes to get out of it. He will never do it, and I have the chance to. I just need to wait untill the perfect time and moment. Im crying just thinking of the hurt look on his face. That is the last thing in the world I would ever want to see. I saw that look last night from him when I gave him that look.
Im so heartbroken and destroyed right now.