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Christmas was good, spent time with my family and friends. My grandma came up from FL. I got tons of stuff and December also marks the month I stop paying rent cause I'm going back to school. Love it! New years is coming up and for thoes of you that don't know my track record with new years eve then just know I haven't had a good one since I was 17. For some reason or another I always end up getting into these knock down drag out fights w/ my mom or some other shit happens... This year I signed up to run duty 6-10 however, I have gotten several invites to different parties. I'm not even sure I want to go to any. I kinda just want a quite drama free night unless it's someone else's drama in the back of the ambulance... See Fredericksbug has gotten a track record for something really big happening on new years. 2 years in a row now there has been someone who has gotten shot. That's just awesome (not that it happened but it's just great experience) I have only worked 1 gun shot victim and I gotta say I rocked it but it was also just to the guys thigh and calf. Nothing to serious- it had the potential to be due to a very important artery in your thigh called the femoral artery (a recent football player died from a GSW to the thigh cause it hit his femoral artery and he bleed out)however it didn't hit it, thus crisis averted. Anyways, I've been thinking a lot lately and the more I do, The more depressed I get. Recently the topic of me not being married, let alone in a relationship has been quite popular within my family. Yes, I'm only 23, I have time, I'm not in a hurry but it would be nice to at least be in a relationship that could lead to something... However, I did start thinking about my past relationships. The thing almost all of them had in common at least the most recent ones was that they were all secrets. Why do I have to be kept a secret- Am I that horrible they don't want anyone to know? Screw that. Who ever I date they should be proud, happy, excited that are with me. It's not totally their fault though, I let them do it. I don't usually make new years resolutions but this year I am. My new years resolution is not to date anyone who isn't over the moon about going out with me, I'm not going to be a secret anymore. I think I deserve better.