[Voice | Locked] l-lol....have some Ichigo-babble, Mikaela /)__-;;savior_n_blackJuly 22 2009, 19:03:27 UTC
It's a really long story, but...I think I might have caused a friend of mine to break up with his boyfriend, and I didn't mean to do it, and christ you've got no idea how messed up this all is, because I really, really like my friend--as maybe more than friends, you know?--and there I was; trying to get them to talk to each other, keep them together!! And now, my friend admitted that he likes me back, and I don't know what to think about that, or if any of this is right, or if maybe I should just ignore these bullshit feelings, since I'm pretty sure I'll get blamed for stuff-and-I-just-want-to-hit-something-before-I-go-nuts!
Ohhh shit, relationship drama? Fuck, that's the worst...
Okay, so let me make sure I've got everything straight. This friend of yours who likes you and his boyfriend broke up, maybe because of something you said? And you're interested in the guy too?
[Voice || Locked]savior_n_blackJuly 22 2009, 23:24:24 UTC
Yeah...I think so? Fuck it, my friend's name is Ggio. Though, I'm actually pretty pissed off at him, too.
Anyway, it's complicated, but let's just say Grimmjow--Ggio's boyfriend-- had a special brand of hatred for me before any of this happened.
So...Yeah. I don't even know what the hell I'm thinking, or feeling right at this moment, and it's all kinds of fucked up....hell, I'm not even sure I like guys that much, since I do like girls, but...ugh, I can't make since of it.
[Srsly. If he wasn't so mixed up, Ichigo would never talk about any of this stuff with you, Mikaela. You're just about the only person not somehow personally involved in this mess that he trusts even remotely 8|;;;]
Jesus, that sounds pretty bad, I won't lie. And if this Grimmjow guy already doesn't like you...
If you want my advice, I'd say, like, just take a step back, you know? If Ggio says he likes you, but you're not even sure you like guys that way, then you probably don't want to do anything with him, especially since he's just, like, broken up. 'Cause if something does happen between you guys and you realize you don't like him that way, you'll just hurt him...
Y' just gotta, like, be there for him right now, y'know?
((Aww, she'd be so flattered if she knew that. ;3;))
Re: [Voice || Locked]savior_n_blackJuly 24 2009, 00:21:54 UTC
No, no I don't want anything bad to happen, you're right.
I'm...not sure how much I can step back from everything, though. Like I said, it's complicated, and there's other stuff I didn't go into, but...I dunno. I feel like if I just let this go, it would be my fault for taking the easy way out, when I know that I'm at least partially to blame, here.
[A tired sigh.]
Ggio's trying to push everyone away. He's really given up hope that--....well, that what he is, and what I am--arrancar, and shingami--aren't really that different.
I dunno, Mikaela. This is all so messed up, and...I just need to do something productive, you know? Do something before I lose my goddamn mind.
I don't think getting yourself beaten into a pulp is gonna do anybody any good, though, y'know? That's just taking the easy way out, too, 'cause it just seems like you're trying to ignore it...
It sounds like maybe the best thing to do would just try to get through to Ggio, if he's, like, pushing everyone away. Even if you're not comfortable with being anything more than friends with him, he'll probably need even that, just to know that you're there and you're willing to try and help patch up what got broken...
[Voice || Locked]savior_n_blackJuly 24 2009, 03:00:57 UTC
No I wouldn't! I'm-....
[A long pause, since Ichigo's initial reaction was to deny that he would lose in a fight with Grimmjow, and while he's gotten stronger in the past couple weeks, he's not yet strong enough, and knows it.]
....Damnitt, I do get what your saying. Honest, and I know your right. Just...I hate not being able to do more, I guess. Heh, I suck at sitting around, and worrying.
Yeah, I know how frustrating that can be, I really do. But sometimes, you just gotta do the best you can and hope it's enough. It sucks, but it's, like, better than nothing, or trying to do too much and screwing up worse.
[Voice || Locked]savior_n_blackJuly 24 2009, 03:36:50 UTC
Yeah...I know.
....Thanks, Mikaela. Your almost the only person I would trust not to talk about this stuff, who isn't somehow really involved with this whole mess. So, yeah. Sorry to just sort of rant at you, there.
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Basically? I'm an idiot, and I think I just fucked something up real bad.
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Not gonna be permanent if I can help it, though.
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And now, my friend admitted that he likes me back, and I don't know what to think about that, or if any of this is right, or if maybe I should just ignore these bullshit feelings, since I'm pretty sure I'll get blamed for stuff-and-I-just-want-to-hit-something-before-I-go-nuts!
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Okay, so let me make sure I've got everything straight. This friend of yours who likes you and his boyfriend broke up, maybe because of something you said? And you're interested in the guy too?
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Fuck it, my friend's name is Ggio. Though, I'm actually pretty pissed off at him, too.
Anyway, it's complicated, but let's just say Grimmjow--Ggio's boyfriend-- had a special brand of hatred for me before any of this happened.
So...Yeah. I don't even know what the hell I'm thinking, or feeling right at this moment, and it's all kinds of fucked up....hell, I'm not even sure I like guys that much, since I do like girls, but...ugh, I can't make since of it.
[Srsly. If he wasn't so mixed up, Ichigo would never talk about any of this stuff with you, Mikaela. You're just about the only person not somehow personally involved in this mess that he trusts even remotely 8|;;;]
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If you want my advice, I'd say, like, just take a step back, you know? If Ggio says he likes you, but you're not even sure you like guys that way, then you probably don't want to do anything with him, especially since he's just, like, broken up. 'Cause if something does happen between you guys and you realize you don't like him that way, you'll just hurt him...
Y' just gotta, like, be there for him right now, y'know?
((Aww, she'd be so flattered if she knew that. ;3;))
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I'm...not sure how much I can step back from everything, though. Like I said, it's complicated, and there's other stuff I didn't go into, but...I dunno. I feel like if I just let this go, it would be my fault for taking the easy way out, when I know that I'm at least partially to blame, here.
[A tired sigh.]
Ggio's trying to push everyone away. He's really given up hope that--....well, that what he is, and what I am--arrancar, and shingami--aren't really that different.
I dunno, Mikaela. This is all so messed up, and...I just need to do something productive, you know? Do something before I lose my goddamn mind.
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It sounds like maybe the best thing to do would just try to get through to Ggio, if he's, like, pushing everyone away. Even if you're not comfortable with being anything more than friends with him, he'll probably need even that, just to know that you're there and you're willing to try and help patch up what got broken...
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[A long pause, since Ichigo's initial reaction was to deny that he would lose in a fight with Grimmjow, and while he's gotten stronger in the past couple weeks, he's not yet strong enough, and knows it.]
....Damnitt, I do get what your saying. Honest, and I know your right.
Just...I hate not being able to do more, I guess. Heh, I suck at sitting around, and worrying.
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....Thanks, Mikaela. Your almost the only person I would trust not to talk about this stuff, who isn't somehow really involved with this whole mess.
So, yeah. Sorry to just sort of rant at you, there.
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