[blog dramadramaduck] #3 [Locked from Arrancar ]

[savior_n_black]

Kind of got lax on keeping this thing updates, for a bit, huh?
Well, whatever.

Inoue is online too! Relieved is such and understatement, let me tell you! She seems to be doing alright. Happy, too.
I'm glad....but also confused as hell?
Maybe I shouldn't have just taken that little Arrancar's word on things...?Oh well! As long as everyone is safe

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[h4ck3r_61rl]

I think Tommy's still a girl. Right now, I don't care if he stays that way.

Heh, next time, sunblock for the fair haired boy!

Oooh, the Fibonacci sequence.

[locked]

What are you going on about...?

[savior_n_black]

@%$ESW#@% SOMEONE has to help him! IT'S A GUY THING, ALRIGHT?!

And yes, because.....ow.

You like Tool?!

[locked]

You can read that?! T-That was supposed to be private....

[h4ck3r_61rl]

Tommy is the biggest jerk I've ever met in my life. I'll tell you a story sometime.

I'm sorry, thank sucks.

I do! I like all music, actually.

[locked]

It was easy, especially for me, to poke into.

[savior_n_black]

Not even Grimmjow deserves that! Though...it would be pretty funny to see BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT!

It's ok...at least I can hide behind text on here, though, because one more Strawberry crack, and I'm going to lose it heh!

What kinds, what kinds?!? I like a lot of american stuff, really, and just....oh man, so many different things!

[Locked]

Oh...Kay. It was still private. Why do you want to know so bad?

....Because, really Maggie....this isn't stuff that you would want know about me.

[h4ck3r_61rl]

You might be surprised. Tommy...well. Maybe later.

Well, it is cute. They call your Strawberry? Aw!

Everything, seriously. I think the only kind I don't care much for is maybe gospel? But even that can be beautiful.

[locked]

Well you should know that people can easily hack yuor shit, especially here. If you want it secured, you're going to have to lock it a lot better than what you did this time.

And of course I want to know. It's not going to change my opinion of you.

[Locked | unhackable to the best of his ability <3 ]

[savior_n_black]

Well, you can tell me about Tommy if you want? I'm not saying you need to, or anything! Just...I wouldn't mind listening?

And, as far as I go? Maggie...you're really nice, but...there's a lot of...um...bad things. Like, inside?
I-It's...nobody really knows about it. Not Inoue, or not really even Rukia.
Nobody, but the people who are training me right now.

...I'll look into locking things better, but...you don't want to know Maggie? It's safer if you don't have to see it, or hear about it...

[Secured, just for you! <3]

[h4ck3r_61rl]

I don’t even know where to begin to tell you about Tommy. We could start with the lies, or the fact that he keeps sleeping with Vanessa, he all but told me to my face I was a fling, he’s a woman right now and he slept with Vanessa AGAIN-

Uh, this is all probably way too much information. Anyway.

I think you’re underestimating me a bit, but if it makes you feel better I’ll stop pressing for now.

[Locked thanks to Maggie's expertise <3 ]

[savior_n_black]

Whoa, whoa, whoa!
He's using you?! What kind of asshole would say that to a lady!?
Fuck a bunch of Eris, I'll smack the shit out of him when I see him! As long as this whole thing isn't permanent, then I think maybe, maybe a teensy bit of it is deserved.
BUT DON'T TELL HIM I SAID THAT!

I'm not underestimating you, but I bet you think I'm a total nutjob, on top of thinking that most people from my world are creepy, or crazy in one form or another...

...I'm...not proud of what I am? And...I don't want to lose friends over this. I fear that when my nakama find out, they'll....well....they'll either try and kill me, or never speak to me again, depending on each different one.

[locked~! ]

[h4ck3r_61rl]

Using is a weird word. I mean, we’re in this really strange relationship where we aren’t together but at the same time if one of us does something with someone else, we get pissed. Get it? I bet if you asked him if he was single, he’d say yes. Just like I would. It’s…strange. But…it doesn’t make it hurt any less when he keeps sleeping with her. Plus, I’m beginning to wonder if there isn’t another girl too, one that’s not on here. My life…sort of sucks. I mean, he slept with her while he was a chick. How fucked up is that?! Not that it’s wrong, just that it’s fucked up!

It’s not permanent. Everytime someone is changed into something here, it’s reversible. Well, it has been so far.

I don’t think you’re a total nutjob. I think you’re really easily excitable, but not crazy.

Kill you? I can promise you right now if someone tries to hurt you, I’ll send the Autobots after them. Fuck that noise.

[locked~<3 ] ( strikes are thoughts )

[savior_n_black]

Oh...Kay?
I think I get it...but only if he gets mad at you when you are...erm..."with" other people too. Because if it's only one way, then that's not cool at all!
And it's not "wrong", it's....just odd?

And I'm...not sure how to take that, so I'll just hope "easily excitable" isn't an insult, and move on.

Maggie--

...

Okay, I'm about to tell you some stuff that nobody knows, and I mean nobody! Just...keep it to yourself. yeah? Please don't let her tell Grimmjow, or Ggio?
She seems really nice, so...here's hoping?

I'm a hollow.

Or, that is to say; I have hollow/Arrancar abilities.
...And...those abilities come from the 'other me' in my soul.
I know this probably makes no sense, but do you know anything about Zanpakuto? It might be easier to explain if you do...

[locked~<3 ]

[h4ck3r_61rl]

Our situation is strange. We’re almost together…but not? I’m not really with anyone else the way he is, though. It’s…really bad. It feels only one way, you know? Cause I don’t do that to him.

It’s not an insult, haha. Don’t worry.

I wont tell anyone, I promise.

…

Whoa. Wait a minute, isn’t that what Ggio and Grimmy are? You have like…split personalities or something? I don’t have any idea what Zanpakuto might be…

[So locked it ain't even funny ~<3 ]

[savior_n_black]

Well, I know I'm not, like, hugely experienced with relationship stuff, but...Maggie, that just really seems wrong?
Like, the kind of wrong that just makes you unhappy, and not much good stuff comes from it?
But what do I know? ...Eh-heh...

Yes. Yes, Grimmjow is an Arrancar.
And yes...I'm...becoming like them? I don't actually know what's happening to me. I'm a human, but not. A Shinigami, but not.
A hollow, but not!...and, and.....AUGH!!!
It's like...a pit. Like, there's this dark place inside of me, and one day, when I got alllll this power....and so did the dark place.

It...got a mind, and a will...and it wants out, now...

[LOCKED COMPLETELY ~<3 ] she wants to hug him now 8|

[h4ck3r_61rl]

Yeah, I know. I’m an idiot. Everyone tells me that. This past bullshit with Vanessa, though…I’m just so over it. Except that whenever I get pissed at him, like really angry like I am now he ALWAYS tries to buy my forgiveness. Last time it was food for the puppy he gave me (that was a birthday present), two sets of my favorite flowers, candy…just…ugh. I need to be slapped. Seriously.

W-wow. That sounds really…intense.

So..it sort of IS like MPD…?

That has to be...confusing. It’s confusing even me. I couldn’t imagine dealing with anything like that.

[LOCKED COMPLETELY ~<3 ] He's scared to death she'll hate him T^T!

[savior_n_black]

That's dumb!....and wow, now I feel dumb for bringing you flowers. Ehheh...sorry about that?

It's...I don't really think I can explain it? Zangetsu, er...that's the name of my Zanpakuto, my soul-slayer? Anyway the hollow told me....h-he said that he was Zangetsu. He said that when two opposing forces are sharing a body, then the force that is strongest, at a given time, influences the form that it takes.

....It doesn't make any sense to me beyond; I have a hollow inside me. I fight him every time I close my eyes. He wants out....and I'm not ...safe.

I'm not safe to be around....not anymore.

[LOCKED COMPLETELY ~<3 ] Near~!

[h4ck3r_61rl]

Haha, no, coming from you it’s sweet. From him it just pissed me off.

...

So…that…doesn’t mean we can’t hang out anymore, does it? Cause that would seriously suck.

I’m sorry, that sounds like pure hell. That would freak me the fuck out.

Re: [LOCKED COMPLETELY ~<3 ] ( She nearly hates him? awww ;___;? & strikes are thoughts)

[savior_n_black]

I-...

...I think until I get control of my abilities...th-that I'm not...safe.
I'm sorry Maggie...I...I really like hanging out with you a lot. Which feels weird because I still think of you as a girl, and not like Rukia, or Inoue.