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i always feel silly updating now. i usually have something to say, but by the time i get home and to my computor im too tired to do it.
i got a job. i like it so far, it's not hard. i'm just waiting tables about 5 nights a week at a local bar and restaurant. i have a secret crush on the bartender. and one of the waitresses...
so i fought with my mom today, aparently it's good parenting to BARADE you daughter all semester long about keeping up her grades, then when she pullls of a 3.3, you really could give 2 shits as long as you don't have to pay the extra $11,000 that her scholarship saves your prescious WASPy ass. is it really that hard to say "good job keeping up that scholarship, working hard, and making a good GPA" ? Even when i asked her just to fake any sense of pride in me and say it, she still wouldn't.
then: i told her i got a job, she could give 2 shits. i was like, well, congrats on your new job? she was like, well im not happy you got one. well mom, are YOU gunna pay for my grad school? no, so someone has to, and i can't work to pay for it whiile IN grad school and i don't want to take out loans, SOOO.
gah why the fuck can't you just be fucking approving?? if it's not one thing with her its another
so i got upset and wanted to call my sister, but she isn't talking to me
so i wanted to call suzanne, but she isn't talking to me
so i wanted to call tim, but hasn't called me back
adam said he'd call last night, but didnt
so i noticed a common factor in all of this... ME
seriously, am i really doing somethign wrong that everyone close to me doesnt want to talk to me?
in the words of john mayer: "I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say that this is the way that I used to be"
ps, i realised some things, and ive moved on. i mean, i had a crush and it was really sweet and i thought it could be something and it was nice to have someone to talk to before i went to bed at night, but i need something reliable and consistant, and i don't like to 1. share and 2. be the one who hasn't moved on when its clear there'd been definate moving on happening, so i decided to just emotionally unattach myself from that before i get hurt. now i feel really dumb for already getting that emotionally involved, but it could have gotton worse had i not cut myself off from it then.
OH pps, i have a secret. i'm really excited about it, and i think i't acctually gunna work. YEAY!
ok goodnight
i got a job. i like it so far, it's not hard. i'm just waiting tables about 5 nights a week at a local bar and restaurant. i have a secret crush on the bartender. and one of the waitresses...
so i fought with my mom today, aparently it's good parenting to BARADE you daughter all semester long about keeping up her grades, then when she pullls of a 3.3, you really could give 2 shits as long as you don't have to pay the extra $11,000 that her scholarship saves your prescious WASPy ass. is it really that hard to say "good job keeping up that scholarship, working hard, and making a good GPA" ? Even when i asked her just to fake any sense of pride in me and say it, she still wouldn't.
then: i told her i got a job, she could give 2 shits. i was like, well, congrats on your new job? she was like, well im not happy you got one. well mom, are YOU gunna pay for my grad school? no, so someone has to, and i can't work to pay for it whiile IN grad school and i don't want to take out loans, SOOO.
gah why the fuck can't you just be fucking approving?? if it's not one thing with her its another
so i got upset and wanted to call my sister, but she isn't talking to me
so i wanted to call suzanne, but she isn't talking to me
so i wanted to call tim, but hasn't called me back
adam said he'd call last night, but didnt
so i noticed a common factor in all of this... ME
seriously, am i really doing somethign wrong that everyone close to me doesnt want to talk to me?
in the words of john mayer: "I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say that this is the way that I used to be"
ps, i realised some things, and ive moved on. i mean, i had a crush and it was really sweet and i thought it could be something and it was nice to have someone to talk to before i went to bed at night, but i need something reliable and consistant, and i don't like to 1. share and 2. be the one who hasn't moved on when its clear there'd been definate moving on happening, so i decided to just emotionally unattach myself from that before i get hurt. now i feel really dumb for already getting that emotionally involved, but it could have gotton worse had i not cut myself off from it then.
OH pps, i have a secret. i'm really excited about it, and i think i't acctually gunna work. YEAY!
ok goodnight