Rationalization at best

[savingathena]

I told myself that these were the simplest aspects of being human. I must not allow them to obscure the larger questions. And that, further, I was behaving like a perfect coward, and not the dark hero whom I claimed to be. Now, understand, I don't really believe I am a hero to the world. But I long ago decided that I must live as if I were a hero - that I must pass through all the difficulties which confront me, because they are only my inevitable circles of fire.

Anne Rice