where do i go?
my entire life. honestly, for as long as i can remember, people have been doing things for me. everything. when i was little i never cleaned my room, i never let the dog out, fed the cats, picked my dirty clothes up or put the clean ones away. i did nothing but play all the time. i got older and i think that subconsciencly i figured someone would be around to do it for me. and i am 18 years old now and people are still doing everything for me. my daily life is based on the decisions of other people. these people being my family, my social group (i wouldnt call them my friends because they are my boyfriends friends) and my goddamn coworkers.
where ever i go, people fall in love with me. people tell me im one of kind. that there is something special about me. they compliment me endlessly.
[you have a beautiful smile, you're so pretty, you dress so differently, youre amazing, youre awesome, youre so cool, you have a great ass, your so sexy, youre so polite, you have a great personality, youre really smart.]
everywhere i go, stores, restaurants, partys, work, the gas station, the convenient store, a god damn library even, i get hit on, checked out, macked on-or i get a phone number.
i would give up my car for a day if one day out of the week i didnt get hit on. or asked out.
call me conceded, please do it. someone should argue with me on this because i want to be wrong. i have this incredible influence over people i dont know why nor where it came from but its me. its all just me. its just who i am i dont know how to be any other way.
i realized something a few days ago. i manipulate people into sleeping with me.
and i like that.
i am formulating a new theory on my sex life. it should be good.
--something just poped into my head. everyone ive had a serious relationship with has fallen head over heels, obsessive, in love with me. and all have stated i am the perfect girl for them. [every time they would say perfect i would fight and say nothing is ever perfect, and they all, strangely enough would fight back and say maybe not, but youre perfect for me carly]
none of them make me happy for long periods of time. its short amazing connections.
its really hard to be in a relationship were you are growing and learning but your partner isnt.
why do things have to be so black and white. so defined and so exact. i like the grey area better.
where ever i go, people fall in love with me. people tell me im one of kind. that there is something special about me. they compliment me endlessly.
[you have a beautiful smile, you're so pretty, you dress so differently, youre amazing, youre awesome, youre so cool, you have a great ass, your so sexy, youre so polite, you have a great personality, youre really smart.]
everywhere i go, stores, restaurants, partys, work, the gas station, the convenient store, a god damn library even, i get hit on, checked out, macked on-or i get a phone number.
i would give up my car for a day if one day out of the week i didnt get hit on. or asked out.
call me conceded, please do it. someone should argue with me on this because i want to be wrong. i have this incredible influence over people i dont know why nor where it came from but its me. its all just me. its just who i am i dont know how to be any other way.
i realized something a few days ago. i manipulate people into sleeping with me.
and i like that.
i am formulating a new theory on my sex life. it should be good.
--something just poped into my head. everyone ive had a serious relationship with has fallen head over heels, obsessive, in love with me. and all have stated i am the perfect girl for them. [every time they would say perfect i would fight and say nothing is ever perfect, and they all, strangely enough would fight back and say maybe not, but youre perfect for me carly]
none of them make me happy for long periods of time. its short amazing connections.
its really hard to be in a relationship were you are growing and learning but your partner isnt.
why do things have to be so black and white. so defined and so exact. i like the grey area better.