my only friends are pirates, that's just who I am
My intentions are always so good, but I lack the ability to follow through. Here it is, the end of a weekend which I intended to spend being very productive, and I have done none of the things that I needed to do. My laundry is still unfolded in the basket on the floor, my shelf in the pantry is still empty, and I have not cracked open my notes a single time since Friday. I have excuses, as always, but they’re just excuses.
Since the last time I updated, I have continued to learn a lot and make good grades and get closer, little by little, to becoming a nurse. I have learned how to give injections, and right now we are practicing catheters...yikes. I have to demonstrate my ability to insert one properly tomorrow, and I’m about 60% confident that I can do it. I still really like the people I’ve gotten to know, and I’ve become much less scared of working with the patients. I’m looking forward to next semester though, when my patients will be children, babies, and baby mommas.
Nathan is still gone, but almost done with basic training! I am going to Oklahoma on Apr. 15th to see him graduate, and it will be my first time on an airplane, so I’m excited about all aspects of it. It’ll be a little stressful to miss three days of school, but so worth it. It’s definitely lonely without him, but I think the experience has been really good for both of us. Writing letters is romantic for the first few days, but after that it just reminds me why the telephone was invented.
So pollen season pretty much sucks this year, and I have never been one to be very allergic to pollen. I’m not a fan. Especially because I can’t take antihistamines...there’s not so much else you can do for allergies. I love spring though, so I’m trying to see the good in the pollen...yay flowers? I want some soup, and I don’t even like soup. You know my throat really hurts when I decide I want soup.
I have to go to work in about an hour and a half, during which I will most likely start studying for either tomorrow’s lab check-offs or Wednesday’s big test. I like tests, but I don’t like to study...which poses a bit of a problem since I get mad when I make anything less than A’s. At least most of my classes are really interesting...only one is really useless.
So, people really disappoint me. It’s frustrating when you become an adult and you realize that so many people you looked up to no longer deserve your respect. It’s hard not to feel kind of cheated and deceived. It’s also hard to know how to say to someone who still expects your respect that you disagree with them, their opinions, their life...sometimes it’s painful. I’ve known for a while now that people are imperfect and will never cease to let me down, but having some of the people closest to me hurt me the worst is just kind of depressing. I have a hard time giving up on people, so even those who I know better than to count on for anything still hurt me everytime they fail to change my mind. I guess it should make me appreciate those who don’t let me down even more, and even more than that to appreciate the God who never changes and never leaves and never holds my sin against me. At least life has one constant in that.
I’m reading through the entire Bible from cover to cover, in keeping with a challenge that Mr. Trotter gave to our whole congregation. I’m only just starting Exodus, so I can’t really be proud of myself for not giving up yet. I always kind of put it off in my mind as something that I would do one day, but why wait? We all walk around wishing we had the answers to life’s problems and mysteries, and fail to realize that we have an entire book filled with those answers. I tend to only really like the new Testament, but I’m working on that. Genesis was pretty cool, so I’m optimistic...at least until Leviticus comes along.
I really wish I had a kitten.
Since the last time I updated, I have continued to learn a lot and make good grades and get closer, little by little, to becoming a nurse. I have learned how to give injections, and right now we are practicing catheters...yikes. I have to demonstrate my ability to insert one properly tomorrow, and I’m about 60% confident that I can do it. I still really like the people I’ve gotten to know, and I’ve become much less scared of working with the patients. I’m looking forward to next semester though, when my patients will be children, babies, and baby mommas.
Nathan is still gone, but almost done with basic training! I am going to Oklahoma on Apr. 15th to see him graduate, and it will be my first time on an airplane, so I’m excited about all aspects of it. It’ll be a little stressful to miss three days of school, but so worth it. It’s definitely lonely without him, but I think the experience has been really good for both of us. Writing letters is romantic for the first few days, but after that it just reminds me why the telephone was invented.
So pollen season pretty much sucks this year, and I have never been one to be very allergic to pollen. I’m not a fan. Especially because I can’t take antihistamines...there’s not so much else you can do for allergies. I love spring though, so I’m trying to see the good in the pollen...yay flowers? I want some soup, and I don’t even like soup. You know my throat really hurts when I decide I want soup.
I have to go to work in about an hour and a half, during which I will most likely start studying for either tomorrow’s lab check-offs or Wednesday’s big test. I like tests, but I don’t like to study...which poses a bit of a problem since I get mad when I make anything less than A’s. At least most of my classes are really interesting...only one is really useless.
So, people really disappoint me. It’s frustrating when you become an adult and you realize that so many people you looked up to no longer deserve your respect. It’s hard not to feel kind of cheated and deceived. It’s also hard to know how to say to someone who still expects your respect that you disagree with them, their opinions, their life...sometimes it’s painful. I’ve known for a while now that people are imperfect and will never cease to let me down, but having some of the people closest to me hurt me the worst is just kind of depressing. I have a hard time giving up on people, so even those who I know better than to count on for anything still hurt me everytime they fail to change my mind. I guess it should make me appreciate those who don’t let me down even more, and even more than that to appreciate the God who never changes and never leaves and never holds my sin against me. At least life has one constant in that.
I’m reading through the entire Bible from cover to cover, in keeping with a challenge that Mr. Trotter gave to our whole congregation. I’m only just starting Exodus, so I can’t really be proud of myself for not giving up yet. I always kind of put it off in my mind as something that I would do one day, but why wait? We all walk around wishing we had the answers to life’s problems and mysteries, and fail to realize that we have an entire book filled with those answers. I tend to only really like the new Testament, but I’m working on that. Genesis was pretty cool, so I’m optimistic...at least until Leviticus comes along.
I really wish I had a kitten.