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Lover's lips; love's hate and jealousy and controversy. Contradiction. Containment.
To be or not to be, to be together and happy - like a bird with a fish, unrelentlessly (?).
This is feeling.
Not understanding - because this is the first time love has dared to show it's face,
since the choice to carry me home; from abuse, hatred, jealousy, controversy.
Where are you?
Is this only to fill our time, to fill our mouths; to fill our mouths with something
that seems real (words?). Or maybe it is real, real enough.
Or enough to keep us going.
Because where was this happiness? Non-existant, gone, destroyed.
By hatred, jealousy, controversy. Or enough to express, by lover's lips and
messages and thoughts of anti-hatred, anti-jealousy, anti-controversy.
Anti-everything, except this.
And this seems too made up.