Im the biggest fuck up ever
So now that i have pissed my mom off so bad, she has decided to pretty much kick me out. Shes grounding me, yelled at me, worked my ass off, and told me i was a disappointment and a fuckup. I feel like a million bucks right now! Well it is all my fault adn i am going to appologize but i never thought it would be this big of a deal. Like i totally regret it and i feel horrible and i guess after everything i'v put my mom through i deserve this. but i never imagined she would actually do it. But i fell so shitty cuz i know i have been nothing but a disappointment and its not a great feeling. So i wrote her this letter telling her how and i feel about everything and hopefully she will see that im really not a bad kid. I can't even tell you why i did any of the bad shit iv done in my life. I have poor judgement, what can i say. But i really don't know what to do cuz i don't want her to tell my dad cuz he thinks im worthless already adn he doesn't know half the shit that iv done. and i'll end up having to live with him and his crazy wife. Normally id be upset that im grounded and that im possible going to miss warped, but this time im more upset of the fact that i feel like my mom won't even want to look at me of hug me or tell me that she loves me anymore. And as much as i hate her sometimes, i don't want that to happen. And i most definately don't want to live with my dad cuz i'll be even farther away from my friends and my sister. I just hope my mom will still let me be in the wedding. Well we will see what happens.