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so today, i didnt get to say goodbye to shaylyn. im going to miss her a lot.
today i also had to work, and it was fun, and i made some waffle cones and scooped the ice cream.
today i also went to the library and got some books to read.
today i also felt like such an emo basket case.
heres the story.
i went to the playground down the street from my house. and it was dark and abandoned. and i just sat there on a swing and listened to everything. i realized how much i love crickets because they make pretty noises. i also wished i ahd a camera because the moon was hitting the big metal slide in just the right way and it look pretty. and vacant playgrounds are beautiful. the emptiness reminded me of how we all lose ourselves and our childhood. and when we want to go back, everything is dark and theres no one to play with. there is no innocence in the dark. i started to go down the curly orange slide, but i stopped half way down and i just lay there for a while. and i looked at the moon and i thought about how the moon must feel about having to go in circles all the time and if it ever gets dizzy. i thought about how shaylyne was going to be in the sky tomorrow, and then i moved to thoughts about different dimensions. i thought about how shadows are and if there is another world where shadows are light instead of dark. i wish it had started raining. that would have been great. because i love rain. and it was just such a perfect moment that it made me cry. and i know. thats pathetic. and i just kept thinking that no one else in the world enjoys this as much as i do.
today i also had to work, and it was fun, and i made some waffle cones and scooped the ice cream.
today i also went to the library and got some books to read.
today i also felt like such an emo basket case.
heres the story.
i went to the playground down the street from my house. and it was dark and abandoned. and i just sat there on a swing and listened to everything. i realized how much i love crickets because they make pretty noises. i also wished i ahd a camera because the moon was hitting the big metal slide in just the right way and it look pretty. and vacant playgrounds are beautiful. the emptiness reminded me of how we all lose ourselves and our childhood. and when we want to go back, everything is dark and theres no one to play with. there is no innocence in the dark. i started to go down the curly orange slide, but i stopped half way down and i just lay there for a while. and i looked at the moon and i thought about how the moon must feel about having to go in circles all the time and if it ever gets dizzy. i thought about how shaylyne was going to be in the sky tomorrow, and then i moved to thoughts about different dimensions. i thought about how shadows are and if there is another world where shadows are light instead of dark. i wish it had started raining. that would have been great. because i love rain. and it was just such a perfect moment that it made me cry. and i know. thats pathetic. and i just kept thinking that no one else in the world enjoys this as much as i do.