love's a bitch, and i'd like to slap it.

Feb 26, 2005 19:51

school's going great, grades aren't too bad, i think my lowest at this point is a C, which is good ( Read more... )

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nimajneb_mahrud February 27 2005, 05:15:14 UTC
what's important in life?
people, or things?

i'm kinda going through a similar situation now, my girlfriend of a year and a half just broke up with me because of sorta similar reasons, not to mention we both had issues to work on that we weren't doing anything about while together...

anyway, my point is this, i don't know what my girlfriend is thinking right now, i'm not allowed to contact her until she's ready, so i'm kinda in the blue as to whether or not there is ever going to be a chance of getting back together, but i know that that's what i want.

i know this, because i've thought about things a lot, and i know that i love her more than anything. i know that she loves me (just not how much, or in what way) and my feelings are that nothing else matters in the world other than the people you surround yourself with, and the connections you make and keep. you can become successful in anything, but will you really be happy without that special someone?

now if you don't feel that he's the right someone, that complicates things a bit, and i know that's something my...i almost called her my girlfriend...i can't do that right now, and it's weird...but i know that's something she's dealing with right now...

i guess, i don't really know what to say, just that i hope that you follow your heart, and let that be your guide, because that's really what's important in life...and that's what i hope mine does for me...

if you can find anything that's helpful in this jumble, good. if not, then please disregard, i'm just not very articulate nowadays, it's hard to be when nothing seems to make sense...

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savesc March 1 2005, 02:56:30 UTC
yeah, you kind of sound a lot like my own boyfriend. we broke up 3 days ago. i decided that we had to split it up because sometimes, you just can't turn back and undo what has already been done. but when i went over to his house to drop off his stuff, we talked. actually, he defended himself, telling me that he loves me more than anything, that he understands my decision, but let me know that there is no such thing as the "right time" for matters of the heart.

I told him that it wasn't the right time for me because we're both young, and i need to focus on studies and just have fun being young and what not. but after we broke up, i realized that i loved him more than anything. that i wanted to wake up to his face and his morning breath for as long as i am alive. yeah, it sounds cheesy, and i know i may be young and naive and a hopeless romantic, but, i know it's the truth. so when he defended himself and asked me back, i tried hard to ignore what my family would think, what is the conventially correct thing to do, and so on, and i tried to feel what was going on inside. and i knew that i had to stay with him.

anyway, pardon my rambling, but yeah, i followed my heart, and yeah, i realized that even though i am young and i've got this bright future ahead of me, i want him to be by my side through it all.

i know what your girlfriend is going through, at least, i can assume. it's scary. girls like to be fickle sometimes, and we will second guess everything we do. we think too much, the "what-ifs" keep running through our mind. we think of the worst possible situation and think that that is enough to call it quits.

i know that if the feeling is mutual, she will realize it and come back to you. with girls, and with the rest of things in this world, it takes time. time's a bitch too, and i'd like to slap it.

when she comes back to you, let me know. thanks for your encouraging words, ben. i truly appreciate it... and needed it.

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