How do you measure love....
Well, I'll keep this as short as possible:
My parents went back to court on the 19th
I wanted my mom to win
She didn't
She lost
Now, I have to see my dad again
I haven't seen him for a year and a half
I haven't talked to him for 10 months
He has a frickin beard
I hate him
I can't live with him
Every other weekend
I'll have to visit him
And after 4 weeks...
I have to go to Ocala
I'll have to stop lacrosse
For the most part
And quit church
And friends
No one understands
Why doesn't any judge ever believe us
I hate it
I'm going to die
Yeah, that's my life for now
Plus, I have crutches
I don't know what to do
My insides are all torn into little shreds
I don't know what to think
My stomach aches
I cry every night
Again
Prayers don't even work anymore
What if he doesn't love me
And worse, what if I don't love him?
I'm really sorry if this is depressing to anyone. But, welcome to my life. For all of my new friends...this is a scar that I usually am fairly good at hiding. Most people don't know that I've been abused. And most of you never will. I'm sorry for burdening you with my life. But this is how my story goes.
ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
Tonight at the football game, which we won- yipee!!!, I got two, that's right, two kisses from Michel....:)
I'll tell details in my friends only journal, so comment if you want the goods lol. As long as I've heard of you, I'll add you.
You complete me
Every time we are this close
The rest of the world fades away
It's just you and me
Our two hearts combined
Into an intricate unitary soul
And I love it
I love you
The moments feel like hours
And I can feel every drop of happiness in my heart
I feel laughter and smiles
And yet I feel passion and love
It's undescribable
I love it
I love knowing that you care about me
And that I am yours
It's all that matters
Just hold me now
And never let me go
Please....don't let this feeling fade.
Ever
Love Lauren xoxoxo
Thankyou Michel- for loving me.
My parents went back to court on the 19th
I wanted my mom to win
She didn't
She lost
Now, I have to see my dad again
I haven't seen him for a year and a half
I haven't talked to him for 10 months
He has a frickin beard
I hate him
I can't live with him
Every other weekend
I'll have to visit him
And after 4 weeks...
I have to go to Ocala
I'll have to stop lacrosse
For the most part
And quit church
And friends
No one understands
Why doesn't any judge ever believe us
I hate it
I'm going to die
Yeah, that's my life for now
Plus, I have crutches
I don't know what to do
My insides are all torn into little shreds
I don't know what to think
My stomach aches
I cry every night
Again
Prayers don't even work anymore
What if he doesn't love me
And worse, what if I don't love him?
I'm really sorry if this is depressing to anyone. But, welcome to my life. For all of my new friends...this is a scar that I usually am fairly good at hiding. Most people don't know that I've been abused. And most of you never will. I'm sorry for burdening you with my life. But this is how my story goes.
ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
Tonight at the football game, which we won- yipee!!!, I got two, that's right, two kisses from Michel....:)
I'll tell details in my friends only journal, so comment if you want the goods lol. As long as I've heard of you, I'll add you.
You complete me
Every time we are this close
The rest of the world fades away
It's just you and me
Our two hearts combined
Into an intricate unitary soul
And I love it
I love you
The moments feel like hours
And I can feel every drop of happiness in my heart
I feel laughter and smiles
And yet I feel passion and love
It's undescribable
I love it
I love knowing that you care about me
And that I am yours
It's all that matters
Just hold me now
And never let me go
Please....don't let this feeling fade.
Ever
Love Lauren xoxoxo
Thankyou Michel- for loving me.