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hi
god its late
i just read my journal from 8th grade
haha i thought by this time i wouldnt have stupid online journals anymore
im the only one out of everyone who still updates
its an easy way to remember things i guess
but anyway
i didnt just read my old journal
i read someone elses
i dont know why
i guess to try to understand
and i do
and im happy for you
i dont understand why you cant have both
but whatever
not my business anymore i guess
but anyway
back to mine
its late and i want to go to bed
all i want to say is
after reading all that
it seemed like the last two years were all in preparation for everything i just lost
that makes sense to me i promise
the good news is, and yes theres always good news
it can only get better from here
i still feel like theres something to come
but if theres not
i guess there will be something i just dont knwo about yet
of course i can sit here and wonder about all the things i did and didn't do and i could go as far back as never leaving pine crest
but things happen the way they were supposed to
and i guess this wasnt our time
im not going to lie
i still love you
definitely as my best friend even though i cant say that without feeling stupid anymore
and maybe more but i dont care to think about it
and i miss what we had more than anything in my whole life
but i guess the more amazing things are the worse it feels to lose them
it wasnt fair
but tomorrows a new day
and tomorrow i think its time
now that ive accepted things cannot be the same
its time to show you, the world, and especially me, that im fine without you.
more than fine
ive gained something from this
im not sure what it is
but i know its there
and when i find it, ill share
until then
ill keep on listening to this playlist i made
hmmmmm
valentines day
hmmmmm
is this worth fighting for?
good night
god its late
i just read my journal from 8th grade
haha i thought by this time i wouldnt have stupid online journals anymore
im the only one out of everyone who still updates
its an easy way to remember things i guess
but anyway
i didnt just read my old journal
i read someone elses
i dont know why
i guess to try to understand
and i do
and im happy for you
i dont understand why you cant have both
but whatever
not my business anymore i guess
but anyway
back to mine
its late and i want to go to bed
all i want to say is
after reading all that
it seemed like the last two years were all in preparation for everything i just lost
that makes sense to me i promise
the good news is, and yes theres always good news
it can only get better from here
i still feel like theres something to come
but if theres not
i guess there will be something i just dont knwo about yet
of course i can sit here and wonder about all the things i did and didn't do and i could go as far back as never leaving pine crest
but things happen the way they were supposed to
and i guess this wasnt our time
im not going to lie
i still love you
definitely as my best friend even though i cant say that without feeling stupid anymore
and maybe more but i dont care to think about it
and i miss what we had more than anything in my whole life
but i guess the more amazing things are the worse it feels to lose them
it wasnt fair
but tomorrows a new day
and tomorrow i think its time
now that ive accepted things cannot be the same
its time to show you, the world, and especially me, that im fine without you.
more than fine
ive gained something from this
im not sure what it is
but i know its there
and when i find it, ill share
until then
ill keep on listening to this playlist i made
hmmmmm
valentines day
hmmmmm
is this worth fighting for?
good night