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I still feel rather disconnected. Yesterday is a blur... I don't even remember Thursday night. I think I was at Kevin's for a little while, but I'm not sure. I can't really seperate what I dreamed yesterday and what really happened. I know I talked to Alan and my dad, those were about my only lucid moments. Damn. Dad said I should hopefully start to feel better by later today. I already feel better than the hell that was yesterday, but I'm still a little shaky.
Yeah, I know I lost control. It happens. I didn't even realize what was happening until it was way too late. I'm suffering for it now, don't worry. I think I need to eat, but I'm not sure if I can handle it. I haven't eaten since Thursday, but I've been pushing the water like crazy this morning. I've been bad before the morning after, but I've never been this bad two days later...
I'm supposed to go to Alan's grandmothers today, and I'm going to try my best to do it. I feel like an ass for missing stuff yesterday with Kyle and Rachel because of my irresponsibility. True, I didn't miss a class over it, but still. I am well aware of my limits and completely ignored them the other night. But I'll get past this... eventually.
Yeah, I know I lost control. It happens. I didn't even realize what was happening until it was way too late. I'm suffering for it now, don't worry. I think I need to eat, but I'm not sure if I can handle it. I haven't eaten since Thursday, but I've been pushing the water like crazy this morning. I've been bad before the morning after, but I've never been this bad two days later...
I'm supposed to go to Alan's grandmothers today, and I'm going to try my best to do it. I feel like an ass for missing stuff yesterday with Kyle and Rachel because of my irresponsibility. True, I didn't miss a class over it, but still. I am well aware of my limits and completely ignored them the other night. But I'll get past this... eventually.