I can't stand this any longer.
I have been loseing all my friends lately.
They all say that I am lying about everything.
When I have not.
For instance my friend Brittany.
She said that she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Because I am a liar.
When I haven't lied to her.
The only 3 people I lied to was Austin, Richard, and Alex.
And I dont' really care that I lied to Richard.
He is such a poor excuse for a friend.
He is never really there for me.
Austin isn't either.
but he cheers me up.
and is more of a friend then Richard.
But alex.
I am sorry for lying to him.
I love that kid.
known him since first grade.
I love him forever.
I kind of have an obligation to be at his side forever.
I have apologized for fooling around with Brittney.
which happened 2 months ago.
at the beginning of summer.
Yet all these things are coming up.
that I 'took advantage' of her.
when we were BOTH drunk.
I believe Austin because he said "nothing is consentual when you are under the influence"
which is true.
and I realize that now.
But Why are they bringing it up now?
It seems that all my friends are turning thier backs on me.
All the happy memories I made over summer I seem to want to forget.
They aren't worth remembering when the people I made them with are hating me.
I love my friends dearly.
and I don't want them to hate me.
but if they would rather have me out of their lives.
then they may get this one last wish from me.
I will just back out of thier lives.
and let them live on.
and be happy.
They all say that I am lying about everything.
When I have not.
For instance my friend Brittany.
She said that she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Because I am a liar.
When I haven't lied to her.
The only 3 people I lied to was Austin, Richard, and Alex.
And I dont' really care that I lied to Richard.
He is such a poor excuse for a friend.
He is never really there for me.
Austin isn't either.
but he cheers me up.
and is more of a friend then Richard.
But alex.
I am sorry for lying to him.
I love that kid.
known him since first grade.
I love him forever.
I kind of have an obligation to be at his side forever.
I have apologized for fooling around with Brittney.
which happened 2 months ago.
at the beginning of summer.
Yet all these things are coming up.
that I 'took advantage' of her.
when we were BOTH drunk.
I believe Austin because he said "nothing is consentual when you are under the influence"
which is true.
and I realize that now.
But Why are they bringing it up now?
It seems that all my friends are turning thier backs on me.
All the happy memories I made over summer I seem to want to forget.
They aren't worth remembering when the people I made them with are hating me.
I love my friends dearly.
and I don't want them to hate me.
but if they would rather have me out of their lives.
then they may get this one last wish from me.
I will just back out of thier lives.
and let them live on.
and be happy.