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sitting at the computer thinking... and it sucks i know i wont have the chance with the person i like i dont feal right anout others relations around me . one thing i do like is that iu have no problems with any one i hang oput with( missy isnt a person so i do give a shit about that) missy has a boyfriend and jen has one why the fuck dose missy insist on proseding jen and why dose jenm let her... why did jayme cheat on nick why dose it seem like she used him why dose it seem like she still is. why dose trip always ask me to go with her when she gose out driving why is dave getting fucked ovcer why is laren and lisa so hurt from the past why do i like someone and they never like me. why brian like my friend why dose keven treet me nice and why the hell am i hear. i am bord ... doing nothing significant i never have eather. so what is the point did i impact someones life... dout full where is the love when we ar at war why can i see peole the i dont like but they like me how did it all begin was it a mistake and i was the resault of is that to significant of a dream liquer is like ice it numes the pain if u forget it never happened but it did when i get stoned i am loved when i perchest it people treat me nice when i dont no one sayses anything more then hi to me how is it that i know so many people but they dont know me and how should i act in front of children like my perents act around me like and abusive dad or should i just ignor it my brains been fryed and i like it better thyat way i get what i want but i am never saticfyerd i am critisisded because i dont like me i nhate the way i am i dont like being nice i dont like doing shit 4 people all the time but i do it anyways i love my friends but somethimes i have my douts that they dont love me bace it hurts deep inside not knowing the way to i act is nothing but lies i dont like putting up with ur shit t