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LiveJournal, You Are Dead.
But, i choose to talk to myself via you, once again.
i have never honestly felt like i deserved to pat myself on the back.
and i never realized how stupid i was just months ago.
i'm sure i'll be saying that for the rest of my life,
however,
i am doing so well in school.
sobriety, you'd be surprised.
it's not that i didn't have the control to stay on top,
and get a little high + tipsy here and there.
but without all those distractions,
you can reach your full potential. i haven't gotten anything less than a 91.
pat pat pat on my back.
i've learned to appreciate things to much more.
to love a boy is much better
when it's genuine feeling,
not enhanced or covered up by some sort of mind alteration.
i don't miss goin' out and gettin' "wasted"
you don't see many well-off successful people spending their weekends and paychecks at the bar.
yes yes, it is i guess part of adolescence, (sp.?) to party..
but isn't it also part of it to learn from mistakes, mature, and grow the fuck up?
i thought so.
and i think i'm finally startin' to make some progress.
once agian i'm sure i'll be sayin that for years to come as well.
oh well.
i've become a loner as well. but i guess that's part of growin' up.
i make the time for friends now, instead of making time for myself and homework.
it's a big change.
oh, happy i am.
and i've been seeing much more sara,
and i am much more happy-er. ha.
<3
see you all around.
p.s. i'm gettin my first tattoo wednesday.
with all the money ive saved from lack of party,
its paid off, it brings me this...
-Be OtherWorldly.
But, i choose to talk to myself via you, once again.
i have never honestly felt like i deserved to pat myself on the back.
and i never realized how stupid i was just months ago.
i'm sure i'll be saying that for the rest of my life,
however,
i am doing so well in school.
sobriety, you'd be surprised.
it's not that i didn't have the control to stay on top,
and get a little high + tipsy here and there.
but without all those distractions,
you can reach your full potential. i haven't gotten anything less than a 91.
pat pat pat on my back.
i've learned to appreciate things to much more.
to love a boy is much better
when it's genuine feeling,
not enhanced or covered up by some sort of mind alteration.
i don't miss goin' out and gettin' "wasted"
you don't see many well-off successful people spending their weekends and paychecks at the bar.
yes yes, it is i guess part of adolescence, (sp.?) to party..
but isn't it also part of it to learn from mistakes, mature, and grow the fuck up?
i thought so.
and i think i'm finally startin' to make some progress.
once agian i'm sure i'll be sayin that for years to come as well.
oh well.
i've become a loner as well. but i guess that's part of growin' up.
i make the time for friends now, instead of making time for myself and homework.
it's a big change.
oh, happy i am.
and i've been seeing much more sara,
and i am much more happy-er. ha.
<3
see you all around.
p.s. i'm gettin my first tattoo wednesday.
with all the money ive saved from lack of party,
its paid off, it brings me this...
-Be OtherWorldly.