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I will probably regret saying this later, but I'm ready for real life to start.
Working this entire summer at CVS - and living with Steve - has been wonderful, don't get me wrong. I adore being able to see him every day and the pay for my job is ridiculous-amazing. But it has almost been a curse in that I get to see what my life could be in two years and yet have to go back to school at the end of August. I don't want to go back and have classes to attend with countless amounts of side effects and dosages to memorize. I want to be able to start my life with my boyfriend and have another, more permanent title for him; I want to be starting the career, the reason that I'm putting in all of this work.
The light is at the end of the tunnel, now - I can see my six years in this program coming to an end. It just makes me that more impatient for it to start.
Working this entire summer at CVS - and living with Steve - has been wonderful, don't get me wrong. I adore being able to see him every day and the pay for my job is ridiculous-amazing. But it has almost been a curse in that I get to see what my life could be in two years and yet have to go back to school at the end of August. I don't want to go back and have classes to attend with countless amounts of side effects and dosages to memorize. I want to be able to start my life with my boyfriend and have another, more permanent title for him; I want to be starting the career, the reason that I'm putting in all of this work.
The light is at the end of the tunnel, now - I can see my six years in this program coming to an end. It just makes me that more impatient for it to start.