Jul 24, 2008 08:14
So my date went really well! (Four days later, haha.)
I was really nervous but apparently he was too. Neither of us really acted like it but I found out yesterday that he actually might have been nervous than me, which is kind of cute, I think.
We just missed The Dark Night so we went to go see Wanted, which was fun and maybe this is like, blasphemy or something but I don't always think James is always hot. But oh, in that movie. Yes. Yes yes yes. Anyway, halfway through the movie he holds his hand out for me to hold and I was just like "What?" Haha. I am so oblivious sometimes. But yeah, it was nice. He did the whole thumb stroking thing which is always nice.
And the weird part is, it wasn't weird. I mean, my hands weren't sweaty and I don't know. I wasn't nearly as awkward as I thought I would be.
Then we drove around for a while because there is nothing to do here and then we went to eat. And then we leave and he takes me home and we're sitting in the driveway and you know, I could tell that he wanted to kiss me. And I kept giving him all of these really obvious chances and he wasn't taking them. And I don't remember what we were talking about but I said something like, "Is there any way I can convince you not to?" And he gets this really cute look on his face that I can't describe and says, "Yeah." So then I lean over and kiss him. And you guys, I am not that kind of girl! I mean, I am shy. I do not just lean over and kiss boys first, okay? But I did. (I blame the two anti-anxiety pills I took before the date. Seriously.)
And so there is kissing and then I kind of pull away and look down and say something like, "It's bad when the girl has to make the first movie." And he kisses my neck and it was kind of wonderful. And I am such a girl.
So then as I am getting out of the car, this happens:
Me: Okay. Bye.
Him: Bye. I love you.
Me: WHAT?!?
(I get back in the car.)
Him: You heard me.
Me: You hardly know me!
Him: Sure I do.
Me: I think I might love you too.
And then he pulls me to him and kisses me on top of the head as I internally freak the fuck out.
I didn't mean to say it! It just came out. And then I literally spent twelve hours freaking out before I called him and just basically said that I take I don't take that lightly and he said that he didn't either and he said that he meant it but didn't mean to say it right then.
So yes, I have just been acting like that DID NOT HAPPEN and we have just kind of been normal and kind of flirty at work. It's been fine. And then yesterday we stood around and talked for like two hours after work about nothing and it was easy and fine and I was only a little nervous.
So hopefully this whole thing will go well. People at work keep asking me if we're dating and I'm just like, "I GUESS! I DON'T KNOW." Especially since, you know, he said I love you on the FIRST DATE.
I'm done freaking out. I promise.
I feel like writing this entry has been really embarrassing. And I will probably set it to private or something because I am rambling and acting like a fifteen year old.
real life,
allen