Karaoke, Break from Work, Ninja, Weight
It's been slow-going in the journal this month. Same for my embodiment journal. My life just...isn't all that exciting.
After Saturday's show, I will have done 5 nights of karaoke this week. Yes, 5 out of 7 nights, I have been running a karaoke show! Insane!!!
Sunday night, for whatever reason, Kitty couldn't do Jack Quinn's. But that wasn't too big a deal because that meant I could take Dave and Ninja out to dinner for free!! The karaoke host gets a $40 bar tab there that includes their food. So we had a very delicious meal. The show went really well, actually. I had fun. And Kitty's crowd was very nice and appreciative. Which is nice.
Wednesday night at Hatch Cover might become my show again. Little Tony can't do it because he has class at 8:30 in the morning. I did his show and still had to get to work by 7:30! I'll take it if I have to, but I don't totally want it. But, we need more money, so I guess that's a good thing. The Wednesday night show went great. And if it were like that all the time, I would be happy to take that show. I think everyone had a really good time. Some old people kept saying it didn't sound as good as it does with Little Tony, but I'm going to have to disagree. It sounded better. Because Little Tony sucks at sound. There was a delcious bit of eye candy there that night. He was a cutie. And he could sing pretty well too. I thought he was cute, but wanted Ninja to talk to him. I'm married, I can only windowshop, but Ninja's good to go. I don't think she ever talked to him, though.
Thursday night I had planned on going home and being asleep by 8 in order to get some sleep before the weekend. But Cog Guy called saying he was sick and needed me to do the Carey-On. Ugh. I hate going there now. The owner is stupid, rude, and doesn't follow the rules. What's sad is I used to absolutely love any chance to go there, but she ruined that for me. The show was dead. It felt like 6 horus instead of 4. I hated it. But, at least with the money she paid me, I was able to pay myself for Wednesday and Thursday night, so now Crazy Tony doesn't owe me any money.
And then I have Diamond Deb's tonight and tomorrow night. Ugh. Karaoke. Easiest freakin' money I could ever make, but it is wearing on me. We need the money. We need the money. We need the money. *keeps chanting it*
Since today is my last day at El Paso, I decided to take next week off. Originally, it was going to be so I could go visit friends. Either a trip back to New Mexico, or over to Oklahoma to see Adam and Virginia. But, that planned changed because I have to be a grown-up and deal with the rather serious situation we are in right now. Which sucks. But, it is necessary. This will mean a trip up to Montana. A trip we will have to drive since we don't know when we will be going, or even if we are going. We want to, but it all depends on whether things fall into place the way we want. I'm not excited about this because it is like a 14 hour drive! Ew!!!!! I wanted to fly, but it is just too late now. We'd spend more on tickets than on gas. It stinks that I have to put all that mileage on my car. *pout*
I sent my resume to Manpower since they didn't have it yet. They said I might need to come in and do some tests/interviews and such for them. I started with Kelly Services, so Manpower doesn't have any of my work information. So, I'll try and do that next week some time.
I'm hoping they get me a job that isn't downtown so I can stop paying for parking. That's $60 we could put toward something else. And with me throwing down $2000 cash for an emergency isn't helping us get out of debt. But, at least I didn't go into debt over that $2000. Though, if I have to pay another $2000, that will suck royally.
I'm wondering if I should go ahead and get a second job. I know it won't pay as well as karaoke does, but it would be steady, unlike karaoke. I'd still keep my two shows, but then I'd have another job for the rest of the week. Ugh. I don't want to work that much!! I bet Entertainmart would take me back for those goofy hours...I'll think about it.
The time is coming closer to when she'll be moving out. I'm having mixed feelings about it. I mean, of course, it will be nice to have our house back to ourselves. Not that she's been an annoyance, but sharing a house with someone makes you change behaviors. But I'm really going to miss having her aruond so much. I'm scared that once she moves, we won't be as close. He communication of choice is text, and I don't do that. And I really suck at getting together with people. I always shy away from it. I'm scared we won't be close anymore. Which sucks because we really are like sisters. Everytime I bring up something that is a quirk about me, she agrees with it! We have so much in common.
Ninja is absolutely amazing. She's funny, smart, creative, beautiful. I am so happy to know her! And to think it all came about from karaoke. Just like Dave.
I've stopped working out. I managed to do it for one week, but then I stopped. What sucks is that I want to keep going! But, I hurt my stupid foot somehow, and it still isn't better. I don't know what it is. It isn't like a sprain or a break or anything. It just doesn't feel good to walk on. I want to keep running. I love it. But I can't right now.
Plus, I needed to change the schedule anyway. The schedule I had planned out didn't work well for taking my temperature every morning as I work to chart my fertility cycle. So I was going to have to change it anyway. I just need to figure out where to go from here.
My bigger problem is food. I just can't stop eating. Anything! I want to eat all the time. I want to eat way too much. And I don't know how to stop that. It's an addiction, I suppose. I keep trying to come up with ideas to help with this (everything from cheweing lots and lots of gum to forcing myself to stop at seconds) but that never works. I need to curb my appetite.
Truthfully, I'm also disappointed that my thyroid meds aren't more of a help here. I haven't noticed a change in my metabolism at all. When I found out I had hypothyroidism, I thought that getting medicated would help me lose weight. Of course, I didn't think it would just magically disappear. I knew I'd have to workout and such. But I haven't notice even the slightest difference in my body and its functioning since being diagnosed and starting on meds. Andt hat's disappointing to me.
What I need is some success. I need a plan that works in which I lose like 3 pounds. I need some success. I could talk to my doctor about taking Ultra90. I wouldn't take it forever. Just to get myself a good kick off so I felt like I had momentum. Right now I feel like I'm at the bottom of a 45 degree grade. Trying to get enough momentum to get up that steep of a hill is cumbersome.
Ok, this was way long. I think I'll stop here.
After Saturday's show, I will have done 5 nights of karaoke this week. Yes, 5 out of 7 nights, I have been running a karaoke show! Insane!!!
Sunday night, for whatever reason, Kitty couldn't do Jack Quinn's. But that wasn't too big a deal because that meant I could take Dave and Ninja out to dinner for free!! The karaoke host gets a $40 bar tab there that includes their food. So we had a very delicious meal. The show went really well, actually. I had fun. And Kitty's crowd was very nice and appreciative. Which is nice.
Wednesday night at Hatch Cover might become my show again. Little Tony can't do it because he has class at 8:30 in the morning. I did his show and still had to get to work by 7:30! I'll take it if I have to, but I don't totally want it. But, we need more money, so I guess that's a good thing. The Wednesday night show went great. And if it were like that all the time, I would be happy to take that show. I think everyone had a really good time. Some old people kept saying it didn't sound as good as it does with Little Tony, but I'm going to have to disagree. It sounded better. Because Little Tony sucks at sound. There was a delcious bit of eye candy there that night. He was a cutie. And he could sing pretty well too. I thought he was cute, but wanted Ninja to talk to him. I'm married, I can only windowshop, but Ninja's good to go. I don't think she ever talked to him, though.
Thursday night I had planned on going home and being asleep by 8 in order to get some sleep before the weekend. But Cog Guy called saying he was sick and needed me to do the Carey-On. Ugh. I hate going there now. The owner is stupid, rude, and doesn't follow the rules. What's sad is I used to absolutely love any chance to go there, but she ruined that for me. The show was dead. It felt like 6 horus instead of 4. I hated it. But, at least with the money she paid me, I was able to pay myself for Wednesday and Thursday night, so now Crazy Tony doesn't owe me any money.
And then I have Diamond Deb's tonight and tomorrow night. Ugh. Karaoke. Easiest freakin' money I could ever make, but it is wearing on me. We need the money. We need the money. We need the money. *keeps chanting it*
Since today is my last day at El Paso, I decided to take next week off. Originally, it was going to be so I could go visit friends. Either a trip back to New Mexico, or over to Oklahoma to see Adam and Virginia. But, that planned changed because I have to be a grown-up and deal with the rather serious situation we are in right now. Which sucks. But, it is necessary. This will mean a trip up to Montana. A trip we will have to drive since we don't know when we will be going, or even if we are going. We want to, but it all depends on whether things fall into place the way we want. I'm not excited about this because it is like a 14 hour drive! Ew!!!!! I wanted to fly, but it is just too late now. We'd spend more on tickets than on gas. It stinks that I have to put all that mileage on my car. *pout*
I sent my resume to Manpower since they didn't have it yet. They said I might need to come in and do some tests/interviews and such for them. I started with Kelly Services, so Manpower doesn't have any of my work information. So, I'll try and do that next week some time.
I'm hoping they get me a job that isn't downtown so I can stop paying for parking. That's $60 we could put toward something else. And with me throwing down $2000 cash for an emergency isn't helping us get out of debt. But, at least I didn't go into debt over that $2000. Though, if I have to pay another $2000, that will suck royally.
I'm wondering if I should go ahead and get a second job. I know it won't pay as well as karaoke does, but it would be steady, unlike karaoke. I'd still keep my two shows, but then I'd have another job for the rest of the week. Ugh. I don't want to work that much!! I bet Entertainmart would take me back for those goofy hours...I'll think about it.
The time is coming closer to when she'll be moving out. I'm having mixed feelings about it. I mean, of course, it will be nice to have our house back to ourselves. Not that she's been an annoyance, but sharing a house with someone makes you change behaviors. But I'm really going to miss having her aruond so much. I'm scared that once she moves, we won't be as close. He communication of choice is text, and I don't do that. And I really suck at getting together with people. I always shy away from it. I'm scared we won't be close anymore. Which sucks because we really are like sisters. Everytime I bring up something that is a quirk about me, she agrees with it! We have so much in common.
Ninja is absolutely amazing. She's funny, smart, creative, beautiful. I am so happy to know her! And to think it all came about from karaoke. Just like Dave.
I've stopped working out. I managed to do it for one week, but then I stopped. What sucks is that I want to keep going! But, I hurt my stupid foot somehow, and it still isn't better. I don't know what it is. It isn't like a sprain or a break or anything. It just doesn't feel good to walk on. I want to keep running. I love it. But I can't right now.
Plus, I needed to change the schedule anyway. The schedule I had planned out didn't work well for taking my temperature every morning as I work to chart my fertility cycle. So I was going to have to change it anyway. I just need to figure out where to go from here.
My bigger problem is food. I just can't stop eating. Anything! I want to eat all the time. I want to eat way too much. And I don't know how to stop that. It's an addiction, I suppose. I keep trying to come up with ideas to help with this (everything from cheweing lots and lots of gum to forcing myself to stop at seconds) but that never works. I need to curb my appetite.
Truthfully, I'm also disappointed that my thyroid meds aren't more of a help here. I haven't noticed a change in my metabolism at all. When I found out I had hypothyroidism, I thought that getting medicated would help me lose weight. Of course, I didn't think it would just magically disappear. I knew I'd have to workout and such. But I haven't notice even the slightest difference in my body and its functioning since being diagnosed and starting on meds. Andt hat's disappointing to me.
What I need is some success. I need a plan that works in which I lose like 3 pounds. I need some success. I could talk to my doctor about taking Ultra90. I wouldn't take it forever. Just to get myself a good kick off so I felt like I had momentum. Right now I feel like I'm at the bottom of a 45 degree grade. Trying to get enough momentum to get up that steep of a hill is cumbersome.
Ok, this was way long. I think I'll stop here.