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The card at the top left represents how you see yourself. Ten of Swords (Ruin): Crushing defeat brought about by idle intellectualism divorced from reality. Sadness and desolation in the aftermath of a catastrophic and total collapse. A decisive conclusion brought about through the swift and merciless application of overwhelming force.
The card at the top right represents how you see your partner. Nine of Cups (Happiness): Contentment and satisfaction in romance, friendship, or other relationships. Achieving your deepest desires and savoring beauty and sensual pleasures. A state of joy and abundance radiating fulfillment and bliss.
The card in the center left represents how you feel about your partner. Justice: The achievement of balance and inner harmony after a great trial. Agreements, contracts, or treaties concluded justly. Things set to rights. Karma restored. A turn for the better in legal matters.
The card in the center right represents what stands between you and your partner. The Western Emperor: Worldly authority and power. Social mastery and oratory. One who is intelligent, experienced, confident and reasonable. A patriarch or primary male influence. The motive force of politics and society. The ability to fulfill plans and use mental control over the emotions.
The card in the lower left represents how your partner sees you. Scorpio: A determined and forceful spirit, full of power and passion. An exciting and magnetic personality fueled by fiery emotions. Conversation that is direct and to the point, casting the world in black and white.
The card in the lower right represents what your partner feels about you. The Eastern Emperor: Faith in tradition and the old school. A justified and ancient source of power. Being supportive, sympathetic and loyal. Receiving instructions, learning, guidance or inspiration. The ability to hear a higher or inner voice. May also indicate a religious ritual, such as a marriage or an initiation.
The card in the center represents the present status or challenge of the relationship. The Hanged Man: Pausing to reflect. Surrendering to an experience. Adjusting to new ideas through sacrifice. Opening oneself to intuition and enhanced awareness. Letting go of past patterns and growing beyond them. Inner peace, faith, and serenity.
This is the world as it pertains to you and me. if only I could find the strength to catapault myself out of the world I know and into a world where you and I are no longer forbidden to each other. I see your eyes glowing in my dreams, I feel my heart turn over when your words appear. sometimes I wonder if you're real or if I've invented you in my head somewhere. if your existence is merely a dream borne from the deepest parts of me, the parts that crave things only you can give me.
Evidently what you feel about me is the card that I was assigned by birth. does that mean that you know me? really know me? because I would give anything to be known like that, without explanation, without even the opportunity to decieve, what if the things you see in me are the real things? how amazing is the world if it could bring me something like that? tonight you are far away, but just as mr. desnos is so fond of reminding me:
Far from me
but here all the same without your knowing,
Far from me
and even more silent because I imagine you endlessly.
Far from me
my lovely mirage and eternal dream,
you cannot know.
If you only knew
I imagine you endlessly. would that you were here with me. would that I could know all the things I desire to know about you. would that the list would ever end. tonight I'll sleep alone but I'll be dreaming of you.